i dun think i am worthy of that compliment.
or maybe not anymore.
all along.
i was trying.
to care for people around me.
and i'm getting sick and tired of these.
at home. always trying to be leading.
helping around.
but mummy thinks that i dun care.
people i am close to.
stealing.. lying.. hidding.
whatever shit.
so much of growing up together.
with my friends.
always try to make time for them.
but they always find excuse to not to get their ass out.
even ur closest.
they dun find effort to look for u anymore.
and tell me why should i make the effort.
i always tell myself.
no complains cos atleast i have a big family in church.
and my big Daddy always around for me.
finefine.
i'm just not feeling good lately.
dun feel like talking much.
maybe its exam stress.
of maybe its just me.
life sucks.
yes..
i know.
what is mine comparing to others.
mandy tell me not be too bothered about others much.
atleast trys to be a lil selfish.
for urself.
if not..
i'll get depression in no time.
and yes.
i am going to be selfish.
or atleast try.
i'm going to try to be for a month.
yesyes.
maybe i shall see how it goes.
i think signs of depression is showing.
sick.
sickening.
oh well.
maybe thats life.
life on earth.