In the name of love (: :)

60 000++ dead,
30 000++ missing.

'almight God,
I'm very sure You heard our Cries Lord.
I know that You are in total control of it,
but I really want to pray that You will continue to be with those who need You.. Be with those mother who lost thier kids, Be with the kids that lost their mom Lord. Father, You are always faithful Lord and i pray that Your Love will be Spread to all people in China.
I pray for good health for those rescue workers,
pray for extra strength for them too.
please bless china with good weather so that rescue work can be done quickly.
Father i commit this prayer to You and thank You for listening.
AMEN.

when i watched the video about the earthquake just now,
my heart sank.
when i saw those mothers crying out their children's name,
i cried with them too.

in times like this,
nice clothes, big houses, nice cars doesn't matter anymore.
it's really scary to know that your love ones can actually disappeared in the next moment, it's not like you wake up and then it's a whole new day again with them still around. It's like being alone in the world again, rebuilding what u've been building all over again.

i really hope that each and one of you would say a prayer for those in china too.
because God answers prayer.
i'm very sure of that.

Song Xinyi, a 3-year-old earthquake survivor, is saved in earthquake-hit Beichuan County, southwest China's Sichuan Province, May 14, 2008. Song was saved after being buried in the ruins for more than 40 hours.

In this photo distributed by the official Chinese news agency Xinhua, mothers hold the chest card of their children who died in the earthquake in Pingwu County, southwest China's Sichuan province, on Thursday May 15, 2008. (AP Photo/Xinhua, Ren Junchuan)

Two Chinese students, who survived last week's quake, cry while holding a Harry Potter book belonging to a victim, at a collapsed school in Beichuan China's southwest Sichuan province, Wednesday, May 21, 2008. More schools reopened Wednesday in China's earthquake-hit Sichuan province, but rain and a lack of tents underscored the massive task facing the government in sheltering millions left homeless. (AP Photo/Andy Wong)

my heart goes to u, china.

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Saturday, May 24, 2008 | Saturday, May 24, 2008

the tenth great month we shared(:

(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:

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Thursday, May 22, 2008 | Thursday, May 22, 2008

bum day out on my day(:

bum appeared at 5am.
surprise me with 3 dif gift.
headed for lunch in vivo at one of our fav.
then SENTOSA(:
was kinda sad that it started raining.
but bum said ' since we are here alr, lets make the best out of it'
(:(:(:
then dinner at CHIJMES.
walk thru the city and snaps pic with my fav cam.
home-sweet-home.

no words could discribe how i felt that day.
thanks bumsy(:

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Monday, May 19, 2008 | Monday, May 19, 2008

20(:

Great start to my 20th year of my life
although i had some struggle with some of my frens.
after reading cheryl's entry,
i realise that i'm guilty of not being a good fren,
but expect my fren to always be there to ask me out.
i've finally decided to choose my best frens.
one conversation i had with cheryl and i was reminded that i once mention that ' it's not true that the older u grow the less closer frens u have'
but well, what can i think of when i was still in my early education years.
i think everybody choose their close fren,
they want to have frens that can influence them in the right way, frens that they can talk to regarding every single issue.
i've mademy choice in best frens that i want to keep.
this birthday that i had,
showed me so many things,
things that i haven been learning for the past 20 years.
natural disaster that happened in the two country made me realise that,
all this friends that doesn't bother about how u feel, shouldn't affect u.
because at the end of the day, i doesn't really matter.
what matter is those we will stay right beside u in times like this.
i have many frens that choose their frens over the years.
like my secondary.s frens choose those whom they can clique better well with, like how this girl choose frens that will not lead her astray.
i'm glad that i have the previledge to choose mine.
but whether it is for me to keep it close is another issue.

__________________________________
anyway,
here are those who were with me throughout my birthday and made it really special.
________________________________

My BestFriends(:

esp to velle and maine.

thanks so making my birthday such a great one.

and for being the fren that i would want to spend my time with.

(:(:

thanks to:

JOAN,JINcheng,MAINE,LOVELLE,

WEIbeng,QIUsong,KEN,JONATHAN,LEONARD,SHIqing

(i hope i didn't miss anyone out.)

spent my day at demseyhill with all expense paid.

love that place(:

dinner at P.S cafe.

and next to ben&jerry's

u can't never imagine it when the whole ben&jerry join in for my birthday song.

And most of all.

got me what i always have wanted!!!

and yes!

it's the LOMO-diana.

and not only that.

i also got ikea voucher!

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One great fren that i would really treasure.

CHERLY KONG SIANG LING.

thanks for the amount of joy in this short period of time

(:(:(:

God is amazing in blessing me with u.

i really love that cake that u bake for me.

and waited for like an hour at outrum just to pass me that.

really really appreciate that dear!

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girls that are really close to my heart(:

THEY GOT ME LOMO-FISHeye(:

really surprise to get the camera(:

it's really nice to know that u all know me so well!

although i don't always gave my time to u all.

i know i ought to be scolded.

but thanks for always being so understanding.

love u girls(:

____________________________

My secondarySCHOOLmates.

the girls came up to meet me on the 14thmay night.

chel,jo,qiuyun came.

chenyang came too.

met them up again and had dinner together.

was really glad to met up with them.

it's been so long since i've seen them.

this is the bunch of fren i hope to keep,

and still be able to stay this close ten years down the road.

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and yes.

i had a great birthday with bum.

i shall update again.

so much to tell.

anyways,

sentosa today was nice.

suppose to be starting my debate-report half an hour ago and revise for my stats test tmr.

i BETTER be startin it now

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Saturday, May 17, 2008 | Saturday, May 17, 2008

tell me what i did wrong.

i really wonder what i did wrong,

i kept thinking and thinking and am concern over it.

the only thing that i am guilty of is only forget to call u back.

and then the next thing i know is u are angry with me.

i'm going to say that:

i'm sorry for that,

and that whatever that is plan to meet up is by the guys,

not me.

if i was me who plan it,

i WILL ofcourse ask u out.

and if this is the way how u are reacting to this,

i'm gonna say that i'm really upset.

i really dunno what i did wrong to deserve all this.

i apologise not only once,

and everytime i did that,

i meant it.

i really feel very sad over this.

because i don't know what is wrong with us.

u are one of the closer one to me and yet this happen.

i hope we get to talk one day.

there's a reason why i felt this way,

because i always have had u as my goodfren.

__________________________

anyway,

thanks to those who made my birthday a great one.

i'll post pictures when i get them.

i have get back to do my research.

will post soon.

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Sunday, May 11, 2008 | Sunday, May 11, 2008

sunday(:

i always make an effort to make sure i spend time with people i treasure.

i know that we are all busy,

different schedule,

different school.

but i will make an effort to spend time with u all everyweek.

(:(:(:(:(:

jon pick me and sophia up to church.

breakfast with sophia in church.

sunday service including

mother's day celebration.

birthday celebration.

headed to causeway:

lunch at pastamania.

watched 'what happen in vegas'

great show(: better than over her dead body.

chilled at starbucks.

headed to MOSburger for dinner and chitchat there.

maine and velle laugh at the usual things.

had a long day out.

it's just nice to spend time together every sunday.

i treasure this friendship.

esp that velle and maine will be taking break on saturday.

sunday will be so much more precious.

__________________________________________

FYP pairing is such a problem.

search our heart and ask urself why?

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| Sunday, May 11, 2008

moms(:

one of the few greatest woman that impact my life.

My mummy(:(:

Momo(my lovely aunty)

Ms sherine(:

Thanks for the effort spend on me.

I LOVE U ALL VERYVERY MUCH.

dinner at SHOKUDO(correcting whatever that i spelled wrongly.)

i love spending time with my family members.

esp momo, doudou and mummy.

i really look forward to more of this.

__________________________________

Dear all,

F21 orders got rejected,

so i'm reordering.

sorry to keep u all waiting this long.

____________________________________

i'm so excited about the coming week(:

soccer training on monday.

Out with sherr and bengg all on tuesday.

sentosa with bum on wed.

Cousins on thursday.

secondary school frens on friday(:

_____________________________________

to jing:

i really appreciate that u made an effort to spend time with me on wed,

but i'm not free.

:( sorry okay.

i'm really touched when u said that u cancelled ur tuition for me.

how often do i get that.

esp that u are more busy than me.

u are the only vgirls that plan to spend time with me on my birthday.

i WILL meet up with u.

promise!

maybe oneday accompany for lunch or something.

but can u please come on friday

really hope to see u there.

don't be angry alr alright.

i really love you mann, always the one to initiate,

called me when i came back from china.

and make time for me on my birthday.

thanks so much dear(:

________________________________

training tomorrow without coach.

i hope sak and i can cope.

i miss u bumsy

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Wednesday, May 07, 2008 | Wednesday, May 07, 2008

One More week(:

i am turning 20 in exactly a weeks time!
it's one big 2 that we are looking at and i'm staring at.
it's been so fast.

my brain is 20 years working none-stop alr.
so cool!
and i know that i ought to be thankful to God
for all these and abandone the material stuff.
but i would really want presents for my birthday.

In case u all don't have a single idea what to get me.
here it is:

Coach wallet(:
the black series ones.
all look nice to me.

Ikea Vouchers(:
i would really want to re-vamp my room.

Nice Dresses(:
it's time that i should start owning dresses.
lot's of them.

The camera on my wishlist(:
HOLGACamera (LOMOGRAPHY)
apparently sherr say she saw it at Kino.
i want the DIANA series one.

THEmanhattanNEWYORKportageBAG
i've post it once before on my blog i think.

The SAMSUNG i780maroon (:

ABUNDANCE OF COMPANY FROM my dear ones(:

i really hope to get them.
and i know that it's not possible.
most of it is either too expensive,
if not you will not be able to find it in singapore.
i would want to atleast get my last wish.

last year i mention that i wanted jellybeans
and i got lots and lots of it.
till now it's still not finished.
(: thanks to those who gave me that.

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| Wednesday, May 07, 2008

We Love To Walk. Together(:

TUESDAY WITH BUMSY(:

Hand in Hand

We walk and Talk and Laugh all the way.

could have been better but i still love it.

always a yes for romance(:

___________________________

work load has doubled.

time have doubly lessen.

why?

i shall go back and do my proposal to school.

on the brighter side.

i've finally settled the f21 stuff.

oh yar, one of my fren actually thot i bought f21, as in the aircraft.

hahaha!!!

it's forever21 my dear.

i'm nt that crazy over that piece of metal.

i love cloths more(:

i'm really just waiting for vpost to reply to me.

and then i can peacefully wait for my parcel to arrive.

so exciting!!!

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Saturday, May 03, 2008 | Saturday, May 03, 2008

tell me, why shouldn't i be happy?

CAPS'BEE

sunday cap'sbee at pasir ris park with church was great.

love this kind of fellowship,

this is where you get familly bonding outside ur home.

(:(:(:

my team: falcon(: though we got 2nd place.

but i'm sure we all enjoyed ourselves(:

bum came along too!

JANNA is so CUTE!!!

i love toddlers

Monday was the start of the crazy week(:

CCA drive, drives thru all the way to wednesday.

although i was only there for that few hours because i got class that i CAN'T skip :(

but i'm very sure all of us put in effort to be there.

choy took back the big photo!

i also want!!!

anyway,

all in all,

we had more than what we expected.

went out with bum on tuesday.

dating days are lesser due to ~~our~~ my busy schedule.

so tuesday seemed to be the only few days that we can spend time together.

oh yar,

i've gave up attending strings lesson in school.

guess i'll continue it after my diploma.

had a talk with bum on monday night,

something about our spending our time,

the issue was 'bout spending less time together because we have many other committements that we are suppose to keep up to.

i try to understand but felt kinda sad about it.

i guess i know where he is coming from.

and that i have my ministry and studies is important now that we are in year three, we should spend lesser time together.

it's alright bum.

how silly it is that i cried because i thought spending time with me is not condutive.

i suppose i'm just a girl, emotional.

Movie day(:

it's like if u go to vivo without mache and movie,

it WILL seemed like a wasted trip.

com'on who can resist rosti!!

wednesday:

material research after school,

then i went home.

rested and got ready to go out.

cousin's night out!

without casmine:(

you, lazy bum!!! why didn't u come and join us?!

anyways,

dinner at sudoku,

really cool place.

and chilled at timbre

i'm like SO happy because finally i made it to timbre.

great band they had that day

and the 2nd singer really melted mandy's heart like.

she's crazy, and she wanted to go and hook him up.

hahhaha!!!

and yes i admit he really had a sexy voice.

dun worry bum,

i still love u and

i would wanna bring u there someday(:

thursday(:

had one great seminar by Doc fredi boyy in church.

learnt so many things that i didn't knew,

i'm really glad that i drag myself out of bed.

9am-3pm.

then a last minute meeting

3-late.

i really don't want to comment about it.

:(:(:(

friday.

what a great day.

so happy that there's no kickboxing class for the kids.

so early :(

bum and decided to skip the boring GEMS to go get ourselves a good lunch.

went to alexendra for either ikea MEATBALLS or SUBWAY,

both out fav.

since that we can't decide which one to have,

God decided for us.

hahaha.

ikea restuarant was close for renovation!

but the teriyaki chic sandwich is still comforting enough(:

and training in evening made my day really so much more looking forward to.

(:(:

first time that me and sak had to lead,

both act like a pair of blur queen,

giving our confusing instructions.

i hope we can do better.

so excited to see so many new faces.

but sad to know that coach is going to trial them.

:( means only few can remain.

i always love hanging out with the girls.

happy and simple people (:

except that few.

u know.. ..

but majority beats minority.

after training,

headed down to chel's place.

so happy to see them all!!!

jo had some issue with her guy,

but glad that it's all settled.

birthday celebration for the 2 of my goodfren will be on 16may.

and i will be there.

so just happen that our birthday falls so near to each other.

14,15,16 may (:(:(:

i really missed out many of the gathering.

jo always complain that i got no time for her.

yes, my dear.

i'm very very busy.

and i'm sorry to many of my frens that i neglected

not only i got no time for u all,

i don't really spend much of my time with my family.

thats why i always make it an effort to go out with people when they ask me along.

so to my dear frens,

i know it's unfair for u all to ask me out,

but i really don't know how to plan time for every single one of u.

so ask me out more often okay.

and to chel,

i know u are disheartened to plan and nobody seemed to be free.

i want u to know that i really appreciate that.

love u(:

spent my morning having meeting,

games meeting for church camp(:

i'm so excited about the camp.

i hope i'll be able to lead well.

skipped cell because i actually forgotten my mom to accompany her for dinner with rechelle for her early birthday celebration.

my tummy was duper crampy so was my face.

i'm like really guilty now for getting irritated with my cousin just now.

i hope she forgives me:(

FYP is getting into place.

like finally.

been so long and dragging it without a plan.

all thanks to ms june who manage to help me find our project.

i really hope to get into the team i want.

really thank God for her in my church.

come to think of it.

God really blessed us with so many talented people in church.

alright!

i've been blogging for quite a while.

shall so start on my stats and math tutorial before bum call.

will try to update soon.

love u all!

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