In the name of love (: :)

I will be still and Know YOU are God.

Long day in school today.

really relief that aerospace material's presentation was down.

cannot imagine that i actually said 20V when it's 20kV.

so much of a different.

NAPFA was also over and done with.

(:(:(:(:(:

and cheryl!!!

u didn't turn up, and also didn't reply me.

bet u must be going crazy trying to do editing in the studio.

anyway, i manage to get myself GOLD!!!

so happy.. atleast i manage to do fairly well for my I.P.U

Went for the F1 volunteer interview yesterday.

the queue was crazy.

hopefully me and bum gets thru.

because it's gonna be so fun!

thereafter, rush to meet up with the soccer peeps.

headed to the field for a meeting.

i'm really glad we manage to bring the message across.

i hope we did.

anyway,

training is changed from 2 times a week to four times a week.

it's really killing me,

but it's good to train up for the tournament.

cannot afford to go get trash anymore.

so kiss goodbye to my monday, wednesday and friday evening

and saturday early morning.

Final semester exam is coming up real soon.

i'm like so neavous.

been doing fairly well this sem,

i hope i can improve better this sem.

oh ya.

did i mention anything about my sunday 7 a-side?

I'm proud to say that we did well.

won 2 match,

draw 1 match,

and lost 1.

we enjoyed ourselves under the hot noon sun even though this weird girl was trying to find problem with us.

was so overwhelmed with worries yesterday night.

thinking of how i've been neglecting my friends.

i would really want to go out with u all.

really

and yes cheryl,

haven't been spending time with you.

lets worry about our semester first then we shall go out and go crazy!

and how guiltl for not been able to spend time with xueling.

thank God she is going on the 6th instead.

means that i'll have a few days to play with.

xue, forgive me alright.

i'm really tied down in school as this is my final year.

went out with the asherites+ shannon aka XH on tuesday.

the shopping trip was great!

didn't have that for so super long.

no time, no money.

but thanks to mom for willing to give me abit of cash for shoes.

i got a pair for casual wear.

got too look for a pair of heals to match with my dress or the wedding.

Oh, i saw this really nice dress in far-east.

was soooooo tempted to buy it.

but it cost me like 3 driving lesson.

i would really buy it if i got the cash!

love that dress shop.

the cage 3-a side is coming up.

wondering if i should join.

i ought to be doing something more meaningful than blogging now.

oh yar i promise to upload the picture once bum send it to me.

alrighty then,

will post more on the weekends if i'm not too busy studying for my statistic exam next week.

Love you all!!

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Sunday, July 27, 2008 | Sunday, July 27, 2008

small person with big dreams

Just when i thought i made a difference,

it turns out to be what i really didn't hope for it to be.

utterly disappointted.

when will the day that things will turn better God?

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Tuesday, July 22, 2008 | Tuesday, July 22, 2008

boundless..

Lean on me,

when u're not strong.

And i'll be for friend,

help you to carry on.

i can't express myself any better than this.

i'm really glad,

i hope they'll change for the better.

i love all of you.

i'm so proud of you fa

and i thank God for such one like u.

i really hope to be a fren that can be great help of.

one more fren that i would want to be there for.

i would say i'm contented with what i have ~~now~~

really thank God that i manage to go home for dinner on monday.

really miss sitting around the dinner table with mama and all.

although that night only had mama, tiantian and weiting

i would say that it's enough.

love talking to them.

oh yar,

my aunt actually offered me a tuition job,

which would help me alil with my driving fees.

project after project.

thankfully,

i've got aero-materials, human factors, airframe system done.

but looking at the 4359423058853 more of it that is still on hand.

: terrible.

i think the school is trying really hard to kill us all in our final year.

but i will survive!!!

tomorrow will be another long day of project, presentation and FYP.

yucky yeeky.

well,<

i'll be looking forward to thursday

(:(:(:

that would be one thing that is keeping me alive this week.

gonna spend celebrating our one great year together

by skipping the whole day's lecture and enjoy ourselve.

gonna work hard tomorrow

so that we will deserve our thursday off better.

(:(:(:

i should be back to do more important things.

love u all!

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Thursday, July 17, 2008 | Thursday, July 17, 2008

Am i or you?

I can't believe it!

how can a person think that he/she right when she is not.

):):):):):

joel said:

' von, why are u angry again,

think u got a problem with people'

von reacted:

' seriously,

i think i can't work with people well.

i should go back and reflect'

i'm so overwhelmed with issues.

some important,

some insignificant.

one particular issue is really bothering me.

how can girls like that turn to be something they are not design to be.

is it influence?

is it family background?

i really hope it's not the influence that they are surrounded with.

it really amaze me by how suddenly they can become like that.

and how a norm they think it is.

it really really amaze me.

what are we all turning into mann.

i guess, it's time that i make my stand.

if things really turn so bad,

i guess i'll probably have to choose which side i would want to be.

or maybe it's time for me to leave to the team.

i'm sure if the team didn't exist,

they all will be who they are made to be.

i really love them,

and it really did made me heartbroken to see all this happening.

i really hope they know that i meant well for them.

i was told,

'why are u girls so narrow minded.

it's okay what'

i am pretty sure where's the line to draw the line btwn narrow-minded and maturity.

really hate to be accuse of that, and made me seemed as if i'm in the wrong to think all sorts of that kind of thing.

i'm guilty for judging till a certain extent.

but i'm pretty sure,

i didn't say all these to put the person down,

or to purposely make the person sad.

maybe i should make it clear,

oneday.. i will.

talking about insignificant issues,

sometimes, i just get so overwhelmed by things that doesn't matter,

but funny, it affects me.

i know i have to be understanding,

and know that overly-sensitive is almost equivalent to being paranoid.

i ought to be ashame of myself.

but it has always been an issue with me.

i thought i grew out of it,

but it's really hard.

i really hope u will understand my problem bum..

GB is having a Fund raising carnival this saturday.

i really hope that my friends will come.

you'll never know how glad i am when yun said that she will come.

she's like one of the last few person i'm expecting.

friends like this are hard to come by.

love u yun(:

i know i haven be posting any entry lately.

u cannot imagine how crazy school has been for me.

trainings, projects, reports, fyp, test, assignments.

all due this and next week.

i'm really glad i get to blog today.

i love cell,

it never fails to refresh me.

(:(:(:

can't wait for the friendly with queensway and carnival to be over.

i'm looking forward to it,

but just hoping that it'll pass by quickly.

i shall go get my rest(:

so happy that i can wake up at 8 for school tmr!

love u all(:(:

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Saturday, July 12, 2008 | Saturday, July 12, 2008

): money issue

remember me saying that my phone drop into the toilet bowl?
it's gonna take me $346.50 to repair.
):):):
I'm not gonna repair it!

just when i thought i can sell it away to get myself some cash.

singfest is in singapore!!!
$200 ticket for the second day.
i would really really really like to go for that.
reallyyyyy...
):

all because of my driving,
it's killing me.

:(

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| Saturday, July 12, 2008

Rainbow(:

Aren't rainbow just a 7-coloured thing.

Training on wed was rather intensive.
3km ran,
upslope ran,
half field game.

my tigh was like burning esp with we did the upslope ran.
let it burn..
all the fats away. hahah.

my 3km ran was quite disappointing,
17.50mins.
i actually stopped and walked for like 10m until coach started shouting at me.
i do need that kind of motivation to push me.
my first meal of the day was like 11am.
i was freaking hungry the whole training.
amazingly i was able to push myself in hunger till 9pm.
i've decided to sign up for the nike ran.

10km.
Bum and his brother should be joining also.
maine, want? stamina boosting(:

Had my driving lesson on thursday.
the scariest driving experience i ever had.
drove from yishun to bukit.bt to familiar with my test route.
driving there was hell,
heavy traffic and pouring rain.
couldn't even see the lines on the road.
so there was one torturing hour there.
thank Goodness driving back only 30mins,
but traffic jam does still scare me.
i really hate stalling on the road.

anyways,
Yesterday was aunty evelyn, bum's mom birthday.
His dad plan this surprise for her at termasek club.
for being such a loving mother to her kids,
i pray that she will have a great blessed 50th.
Met quite a few of the people at the dinner.
former Head of defence, principles and people with high education level.
was kinda stressful initially, cause i didn't want to make a fool out of myself. but it turn out that the people there are actually really nice.
bum dad's band is really good.
like what bum said, all of them can sing.
and can u imagine this guy from the bad have like 20 over guitars at home.
how cool can that be!
i really enjoyed myself,
i'm sure aunty evelyn too(:

oh yar,
have i ever tell u that friday is the most dreadful of all because of me GEM.
it is seriously seriously boring.

this is glimsp of what usually happen during gems.

even though it's really boring here,
but i better get back to work.

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Tuesday, July 08, 2008 | Tuesday, July 08, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XUELING

to my dearest chucky(:

HAPPY 20th!!

2nd decade on earth.

enjoy it while it lasted.

i reallllyyyy hope that u don't have to leave for work.

it's just nice to know that u are always around for me to complain to.

love u more that anyone from vgirls.

i claimed that statement, unless somebody says otherwise.

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| Tuesday, July 08, 2008

speak with love

cheers to the better days(:

i'm so glad i got to take a breather today.
the most looking forward time of tues is 1pm.
because so school WILL end at that time.
although the 2pm-5pm meeting to rush out material's report was rather dreadful but then it lessen that 500grm of load off my shoulder.
insignificant but helpful(:
after so many month,
i could actually find time to watch the whole episode of house yesterday
and onehour of channel 8 show.

didn't knew year three could be this bad.
test after test,
projects after projects.
quizes and reports.
and catching my breath to cope with soccer training.
whoo~

thank God that He strengthened me through the week.
devotion in the morning and prayer at night does really helps.

Got back test results.
75/100 for airframe systems,
59/100 for aerospace materials.
76/100 for my higher math.
not too good but not too bad.
well, i will try harder.
i have high hopes for my QEM test.

(:(: bum did really well.
am always amaze by how he did it,
guess he stole my brain, hahah
aim for honors roll bum!

on the bad side.
i drop my phone into the toiletbowl.
how shi**y is that :(
well, bum said 'things like that are bound to happen.'
i guess the feeling of losing handphone is so unfamiliar ever since secondary when i actually lost 2 phone in a month. goodness:(
i hope my phone is still repairable with much cost.
pleassseeee :(

training yesterday toughened me up.
didn't felt so weak before.
push myself so hard.
praises from coach really encourages me,
doesn't matter if he really meant it, but it does boost my up alil.
speed training was crazy, push myself so hard on the first 2 sprint and gave up on the last one.
really felt like i almost died.
never easy being a vice-cap.
sometimes u just wondered if u have done ur part properly.
really glad that grace actually think that i'm alright,
and when fafa and hawa called me 'mummy of the team' made me felt that i'm actually significant.
well, i will try to be a better vice-cap.

suppose to meet the girls at 11.40pm just now to surprise xueling,
but it seemed that she won't be home.
so it's cancelled.
felt really glad to have build a closer frenship with the girls esp
jing, yun and xue.
feel so satisfied.

training tomorrow!!
so looking forward to it(:
saving plan has been going well.
bee hoon is so sick, make me feel like puking at the thought of it.
i've got other stuff to eat alr.
bread-stick(: cheaper than bee-hoon.
i really reallllllyyyy hate saving.
whywhywhywhy must it be like this.
thanks to bum who bought me a drink today.
if not i've got to thirst the whole day till i meet the water cooler.
~~how pathetic.~~ i'm lucky to have even human food to eat.

i really really hope that my frens that birthday is in this month to be understanding.
drving lesson is crippling my savings.
really feel like giving up.
i shall not start that complaining habit.
it was my choice.

oh yar,
i've got my fisheye photo developed.
so shouldn't have done that,
made me even poorer.
but i really love the photos.
and i hope u humans will enjoy it too(:

A lifetime CAMPAIGN

The three angels at sunday school(:

happy in a loop.

Friendship(:

to have each other

to clown for each other(:

to support each other

and be there always.

that's what friends are for.

skies don't have to be clear blue to make u happy.

love all u humans

and bum

and melf too (:

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Sunday, July 06, 2008 | Sunday, July 06, 2008

I'm so PROUD of her!

.... Honor Your Mother....

Exodus 20:12

I know i've been complaining about my mum.

saying how useless she was,

making comments about her,

dislike her at-times,

scold her,

discuss bad about her.

during the church camp,

one of my dear fren told me this

'sometimes, it's not that ur mom is useless,

it's just that, in ur mind,

u think she already is, so even when she did change,

u will still have that mindset being set in ur mind.'

oneday i realise,

i ought to be shameful of myself,

mummy married real young

because of ME.

shifted house afew times to protect me from my dad,

just for ME.

had to wait by the road to get transport from random passer-by,

just for ME.

had to eat only 'bao' for dinner everyday at work,

just for ME.

Had to save up so badly just to get me milk powder,

just for ME.

Had to gave up her youth, parties, frens,

just for ME.

Had to raise me up without the support of her husband,

just for ME.

tell me,

what else am i suppose to ask more from her.

i've learned, thank God he made me see all these.

i should teach her if she doesn't know.

hold her hand when she feel helpless.

stay by her side if she feels lonely.

for i am her only companion.

For i've learn that all of us are weak and sinful.

i prayed and hope that u will forgive me.

i love u mummy,

nobody can replace u.

i'm sorry for comparing u with others,

u are my mom, thats why u are different.

i want u to know that u made a different in my life(:

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Thursday, July 03, 2008 | Thursday, July 03, 2008

401th post(:

remember me telling u guys about my SPCA trip.

anyways, here's two of my fav dog(:

above, JACKIE the schnonzer.

great dog :D

and below if my more favourite,

CINNAMON, x-breed(not very sure of it's breed)

but it's one great beautiful dog.

if i could, i'll bring them home, really.

MST is over,
and i'mmmm realllllyyyy sooo happyyy!!!
math is screwed,
but i'm pretty happy with
my airframe system and QEM paper.

Month of july,
3 great fren's bd.
1st: LOVELLE TAN and JONATHAN GOH.
2nd: JINGTING(:
will post pictures once i get them soon.

why can't my birthday be in this month too.
i've got sooooo-soo many things that i reallllllyyyy want.
esp that fred-perry pump that i saw.

driving is really crippling my finances.
can't wait to get it over!
yvonne ow it talking to me right now.
i'm really happy to finally got to talk to her again after so long(:
we must keep in contact yar.

talking about keeping in contact.
cherylHONG seemed to have disappeared again.
better contact me soon!!!

training tomorrow(:
so excited!!
third year please be over soon~

will update again soon.

love u all(:(:(:

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