question: is it wrong to stay in ur own clique.
yvonne thinks: nope!
thats where u find people that u are comfortable with.
________________
been staying home to study the whole of today.
while studying.
my mind kept slipping to things that i shudn't be thinking of.
friends.
shopping.
holidays.
chinese new year.
' yvonne!! concentrade. atleast for just this week!'
yesyes.
i hate my sinful nature.
'yvonne oh yvonne'
just do ur best, HE will do the rest.
why worry about beating people or whatsoever shit.
yesyes.
alright.
tomorrow will be math.
pray hard for me(:
thank u all in advance first.
and finally i'm starting to enjoy the book.
___________________
and again.
why bother to mix with people that dislike u.
BigGUY: Love ur neighbour as u love urself.
von: yesyes. fine~ i'm trying my dear.
___________________
still love spending time with deary.
and thanks to sherr.
i got alot more stuff online that i wanna grab hold of already.
is that a bad thing?
:)
tata~
Friday, January 26, 2007 | Friday, January 26, 2007
forgotten to post the pictures.
chanel and teddy.
and TEDDY!
how cute!
huskey pups are just that cute....
chanel and teddy.
and TEDDY!
how cute!
huskey pups are just that cute.
| Friday, January 26, 2007
Been quite awhile since i've posted.
okay.
lets see what have i done.
WEDNESDAY.
had my lab test.
got 50.
and yet again.
lowest in class.
i shud be glad that i pass it.
but i'm not
maybe now that everyone is improving themselves.
and nobody to share the 'last person' in class's place.
makes me feel lousy.
lousy is such a lousy word to use.
but nvm.
i've got limited vocab.
seriously.
i got this bad feeling that i will reatain my this module.
i dunno mann.
the thought itself is sick enough.
nevermind about that first.
atleast.
the rest of the day went pretty well.
headed to bert's place.
to play with his dog.
so super cute~
so super feel like bring them home.
but i know mummy sure will kill me if i do that.
chatted with bert sis also.
she made air-stewardess sounded very fun.
or no.
maybe it is really that fun.
question is:
can i commit to that?
i dunno mann.
let tomorrow worry about itself.
babe say i'm thinking of the negative stuff too much.
yea.
trying hard not to.
thereafter.
went to watch 'blooddiamond'
great show.
made me so sad.
so many people die.
kids are being force to join to kill people.
being bring away from their parents.
and brainwash.
can u imagine urself.
walking 5km to school everyday.
and every single moment u kept asking urself
'will i die in the next sec'
everyday living in reat fear.
why shud i be complaining about mine.
maybe someday when i'm rich.
i wan to go over to africa.
help the kids there.
best to evangelise to the peeps there.
bring them the greatest gift.
(:
after the movie.
went to buy dinner and went to leslie's place.
lek-leking.
do the usual stuff.
chat.
laugh.
eat.
love doing that.
so yea.
practically spent almost my day in the east.
on THURSDAY.
suppose to go for math tutorial.
overslept.
and i'm kinda regretting it.
i hope i won't regrett that when i get back my result.
*sigh~
when all the way to the east again.
to meet sha and les.
i was late for half an hour.
and leslie.
reach only after waking up for more than 4 times.
hahah.
leslie the extremist.
i'll tell u why i say that later.
went to ikea.
MEATBALLS!!!
yea.
ordered my usual.
spag, meatballs.
except that this time instead of wings.
i had this sweet tart.
and TEA!
Earl grey tea is GOOD!
or maybe all tea is good(:
yesyes.
i Love TEA
and JEALLYBEANS.
how random.
hahah.
okayokay.
after that.
went to walk around.
laugh the usual laughter.
bought this very big pack of cookie
which APPEAR to be nice at the market place.
then decided to go to les's place.
ran in the rain like some idiot.
while running.
leslie was cute enough to made me laugh.
and again.
aiyoh.
he mention that
'for some reason, if u walk in the rain, u dun get as drench as u will if u run in the rain'
i dunno if thats true.
but we was kinda very drench when we reach the bus-stop.
yesterday was 27degree.
wooh~
reach leslie place.
went crazy watching some stupid video that made me laugh till i cried.
and almost went beserk while trying to play this SIMPLE song on the keyboard.
then went cycling around.
till late.
oh ya.
talking about leslie the extremist.
imagine a guy
who can wake up for more than 4 times to really wake up,
eat two plate of mee goreng with egg and milo for dinner (and not get full!) at 8plus.
and ask his mummy to buy him supper when he is having his dinner.
and decided to eat his one set of mac meal in another 4 more hours time.
oh mann.
leslie oh leslie.
i do love him.
he is really a nice person (:
so yup.
another day spent in the east again.
TODAY.
plan to do whole lot of things.
but ended up doing nothing much.
suppose to go swimming with baby.
but it rain.
so sickening.
i thought my math was good.
trying to do the past years paper.
one paper for 3 hours.
ended up.
hell lot of mistake :(
then clean up melfbaby.
then went for dinner.
then went for worship practice.
oh ya!!
john can play violin.
woohoo!
and guess what.
he say.
if i learn.
he'll give me his violin.
woohoooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!
but that is if my results allows me to.
baby just called.
going for majong session.
if only i dun have parade tomorrow.
i'll go.
baby mention that she wants to snatch shamon away.
and she is so jealous.
jealous to the MAX!
wahahahah!
baby: shamon is mine!!!
MINE!
i'm saying this because i'm jealous.
'i hope that they will have a good time'
i wanna be there.
to go crazy together.
nevermind.
to baby: atleast i get to talk to shamon while u majong ur time away :(
hahah.
alrightalright.
i'm still one happy person.
tata(:...
okay.
lets see what have i done.
WEDNESDAY.
had my lab test.
got 50.
and yet again.
lowest in class.
i shud be glad that i pass it.
but i'm not
maybe now that everyone is improving themselves.
and nobody to share the 'last person' in class's place.
makes me feel lousy.
lousy is such a lousy word to use.
but nvm.
i've got limited vocab.
seriously.
i got this bad feeling that i will reatain my this module.
i dunno mann.
the thought itself is sick enough.
nevermind about that first.
atleast.
the rest of the day went pretty well.
headed to bert's place.
to play with his dog.
so super cute~
so super feel like bring them home.
but i know mummy sure will kill me if i do that.
chatted with bert sis also.
she made air-stewardess sounded very fun.
or no.
maybe it is really that fun.
question is:
can i commit to that?
i dunno mann.
let tomorrow worry about itself.
babe say i'm thinking of the negative stuff too much.
yea.
trying hard not to.
thereafter.
went to watch 'blooddiamond'
great show.
made me so sad.
so many people die.
kids are being force to join to kill people.
being bring away from their parents.
and brainwash.
can u imagine urself.
walking 5km to school everyday.
and every single moment u kept asking urself
'will i die in the next sec'
everyday living in reat fear.
why shud i be complaining about mine.
maybe someday when i'm rich.
i wan to go over to africa.
help the kids there.
best to evangelise to the peeps there.
bring them the greatest gift.
(:
after the movie.
went to buy dinner and went to leslie's place.
lek-leking.
do the usual stuff.
chat.
laugh.
eat.
love doing that.
so yea.
practically spent almost my day in the east.
on THURSDAY.
suppose to go for math tutorial.
overslept.
and i'm kinda regretting it.
i hope i won't regrett that when i get back my result.
*sigh~
when all the way to the east again.
to meet sha and les.
i was late for half an hour.
and leslie.
reach only after waking up for more than 4 times.
hahah.
leslie the extremist.
i'll tell u why i say that later.
went to ikea.
MEATBALLS!!!
yea.
ordered my usual.
spag, meatballs.
except that this time instead of wings.
i had this sweet tart.
and TEA!
Earl grey tea is GOOD!
or maybe all tea is good(:
yesyes.
i Love TEA
and JEALLYBEANS.
how random.
hahah.
okayokay.
after that.
went to walk around.
laugh the usual laughter.
bought this very big pack of cookie
which APPEAR to be nice at the market place.
then decided to go to les's place.
ran in the rain like some idiot.
while running.
leslie was cute enough to made me laugh.
and again.
aiyoh.
he mention that
'for some reason, if u walk in the rain, u dun get as drench as u will if u run in the rain'
i dunno if thats true.
but we was kinda very drench when we reach the bus-stop.
yesterday was 27degree.
wooh~
reach leslie place.
went crazy watching some stupid video that made me laugh till i cried.
and almost went beserk while trying to play this SIMPLE song on the keyboard.
then went cycling around.
till late.
oh ya.
talking about leslie the extremist.
imagine a guy
who can wake up for more than 4 times to really wake up,
eat two plate of mee goreng with egg and milo for dinner (and not get full!) at 8plus.
and ask his mummy to buy him supper when he is having his dinner.
and decided to eat his one set of mac meal in another 4 more hours time.
oh mann.
leslie oh leslie.
i do love him.
he is really a nice person (:
so yup.
another day spent in the east again.
TODAY.
plan to do whole lot of things.
but ended up doing nothing much.
suppose to go swimming with baby.
but it rain.
so sickening.
i thought my math was good.
trying to do the past years paper.
one paper for 3 hours.
ended up.
hell lot of mistake :(
then clean up melfbaby.
then went for dinner.
then went for worship practice.
oh ya!!
john can play violin.
woohoo!
and guess what.
he say.
if i learn.
he'll give me his violin.
woohoooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!
but that is if my results allows me to.
baby just called.
going for majong session.
if only i dun have parade tomorrow.
i'll go.
baby mention that she wants to snatch shamon away.
and she is so jealous.
jealous to the MAX!
wahahahah!
baby: shamon is mine!!!
MINE!
i'm saying this because i'm jealous.
'i hope that they will have a good time'
i wanna be there.
to go crazy together.
nevermind.
to baby: atleast i get to talk to shamon while u majong ur time away :(
hahah.
alrightalright.
i'm still one happy person.
tata(:
Tuesday, January 23, 2007 | Tuesday, January 23, 2007
i was reminded.
There is not a single person in all the earth who is always good and never sins. Ecc 7:20.
i shud have known what is best that i shud have done.
nevermind.
what is done is done.
singapore is playing against malaysia now.
yes i agree that we are not playing well.
keep losing possesion of the ball.
but atleast the singapore's keeper is good(:
i love all the keepers mann.
ahdi's curl is good.
mann.
i wonder how is singapore going to catch up.
shall see~
mechanics paper is over.
great!
so now 5 modules down.
3 more to go.
can't wait!!!
woohoo~...
There is not a single person in all the earth who is always good and never sins. Ecc 7:20.
i shud have known what is best that i shud have done.
nevermind.
what is done is done.
singapore is playing against malaysia now.
yes i agree that we are not playing well.
keep losing possesion of the ball.
but atleast the singapore's keeper is good(:
i love all the keepers mann.
ahdi's curl is good.
mann.
i wonder how is singapore going to catch up.
shall see~
mechanics paper is over.
great!
so now 5 modules down.
3 more to go.
can't wait!!!
woohoo~
Monday, January 22, 2007 | Monday, January 22, 2007
human nature~
i wonder why.
people just love to judge each other.
compare.
sinful human nature.
not that i dun do that.
but i make effort to make sure i dun do that.
esp when it comes to religion.
i really wonder why.
we study the same bible.
yet learn dif things.
whatever, whatever.
God put people of dif character around.
i guess to make me learn that.
life is really such.
we can't chose who we want.
but got to live with it.
so the matter is up to us if we know how to handle it.
finefine.
life is such.
today is rather good.
Auto-cad test.
can be done.
atleast i know that i can pass that module.
no problem.
was so happy that i'll won't be touching cad for atleast the next 2month.
yay!!!
suppose to clash tutorial from 3-10pm.
in the end.
not allowed.
so headed to the airport to study instead.
yup.
tomorrow will be mech.
can't wait to get that over and done with.
alrightalright.
shall update soon.
its just the matter of time....
people just love to judge each other.
compare.
sinful human nature.
not that i dun do that.
but i make effort to make sure i dun do that.
esp when it comes to religion.
i really wonder why.
we study the same bible.
yet learn dif things.
whatever, whatever.
God put people of dif character around.
i guess to make me learn that.
life is really such.
we can't chose who we want.
but got to live with it.
so the matter is up to us if we know how to handle it.
finefine.
life is such.
today is rather good.
Auto-cad test.
can be done.
atleast i know that i can pass that module.
no problem.
was so happy that i'll won't be touching cad for atleast the next 2month.
yay!!!
suppose to clash tutorial from 3-10pm.
in the end.
not allowed.
so headed to the airport to study instead.
yup.
tomorrow will be mech.
can't wait to get that over and done with.
alrightalright.
shall update soon.
its just the matter of time.
Sunday, January 21, 2007 | Sunday, January 21, 2007
first parade.
thank God that 10 girls turn up.
respond was good.
but conflict even started on the first parade.
what am i suppose to expect.
people say.
girls like officers.
i wonder what will the girls turn out to be like.
wonder wonder.
or maybe sherr will turn out to be a better officer to them?
maybe.
angela has quit.
reason or excuse.
but no point serving if no passion.
okay.
i'm having bad thought again.
no.
yvonne no.
yesyes.
i know.
mandy and corin still not in good terms.
but nevermind.
i love both.
dun wanna care too much.
had the gliderz birthday party today.
not many turn up.
but am glad that we all enjoyed it.
they like the place.
i'm glad.
thanks for helping me out dear all.
thanks for the effort.
after the party.
i sneak out of the wing.
and practice on the piano on my own.
i love to do that.
esp alone.
cause u won't have to worry if u created music or noise.
then ken came.
we both tried to figure out a few song.
then cherie came.
taught me abit of canon in d.
then we headed for an instrument each and played.
cherie piano,ken guitar, me drum.
not that i know how to play.
basic beats was okay.
but turn out to be not bad.
impressed!
hahahha.
i love music.
just not really talent.
oh yea.
violin.
shall see shall see.
hopefully my results allows me to.
exams coming up.
question is.
enough of effort?
i dun know.
monday: Auto-cad
Tuesday: Mech.
Wednesday: electronics.
two was over last week.
three this week
so after this week.
only three more.
can't wait.
lost count to how many days to purely freedom.
yea~
but still looking forward to it.
baby:
i thought u said u won't go clubbing.
disappointed.
sometimes i wonder.
if i dun message u.
dun call u.
dun take initiative.
what will happen to us.
i guess i somehow know already.
u can say that i am jealous.
that u rather spend time with fiona.
and those clubbing people.
or maybe i am just too busy.
i dun know baby.
i guess i'm just too sick of thinking for other people.
just wanna tell u.
i didn't talk to u,
of look for u,
not because i forgotten about u.
i do think of u everyday.
nevermind.
its really hard to find one truely good friend.
one that will msg u once in a while.
asking about u.
ask u out for dinner once in awhile.
not u telling them.
not talking about surface stuff.
one who really know about u.
i du have one.
maybe on my part.
i'm not anyone's one.
yesyes.
yvonne suck
i always wonder.
how shud i tell cellmummy about babe.
wonder how would she react.
then i came to a conclusion.
maybe there ain't the rush.
although we both want to be together.
but i guess thats not to most important thing.
babe say that.
he make all things beatiful in His time.
so yea....
thank God that 10 girls turn up.
respond was good.
but conflict even started on the first parade.
what am i suppose to expect.
people say.
girls like officers.
i wonder what will the girls turn out to be like.
wonder wonder.
or maybe sherr will turn out to be a better officer to them?
maybe.
angela has quit.
reason or excuse.
but no point serving if no passion.
okay.
i'm having bad thought again.
no.
yvonne no.
yesyes.
i know.
mandy and corin still not in good terms.
but nevermind.
i love both.
dun wanna care too much.
had the gliderz birthday party today.
not many turn up.
but am glad that we all enjoyed it.
they like the place.
i'm glad.
thanks for helping me out dear all.
thanks for the effort.
after the party.
i sneak out of the wing.
and practice on the piano on my own.
i love to do that.
esp alone.
cause u won't have to worry if u created music or noise.
then ken came.
we both tried to figure out a few song.
then cherie came.
taught me abit of canon in d.
then we headed for an instrument each and played.
cherie piano,ken guitar, me drum.
not that i know how to play.
basic beats was okay.
but turn out to be not bad.
impressed!
hahahha.
i love music.
just not really talent.
oh yea.
violin.
shall see shall see.
hopefully my results allows me to.
exams coming up.
question is.
enough of effort?
i dun know.
monday: Auto-cad
Tuesday: Mech.
Wednesday: electronics.
two was over last week.
three this week
so after this week.
only three more.
can't wait.
lost count to how many days to purely freedom.
yea~
but still looking forward to it.
baby:
i thought u said u won't go clubbing.
disappointed.
sometimes i wonder.
if i dun message u.
dun call u.
dun take initiative.
what will happen to us.
i guess i somehow know already.
u can say that i am jealous.
that u rather spend time with fiona.
and those clubbing people.
or maybe i am just too busy.
i dun know baby.
i guess i'm just too sick of thinking for other people.
just wanna tell u.
i didn't talk to u,
of look for u,
not because i forgotten about u.
i do think of u everyday.
nevermind.
its really hard to find one truely good friend.
one that will msg u once in a while.
asking about u.
ask u out for dinner once in awhile.
not u telling them.
not talking about surface stuff.
one who really know about u.
i du have one.
maybe on my part.
i'm not anyone's one.
yesyes.
yvonne suck
i always wonder.
how shud i tell cellmummy about babe.
wonder how would she react.
then i came to a conclusion.
maybe there ain't the rush.
although we both want to be together.
but i guess thats not to most important thing.
babe say that.
he make all things beatiful in His time.
so yea.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007 | Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Forgiveness?
i saw her again.
%#$^$%^&#$%^$
arggg~!!!
mann.
got to control my tongue.
got to control it!!!
sickening
sickening..
tomorrow got 2 presentation.
oh mann!
pray for time to pass faster between 8-12.
yesyes
atleast
i get to go out with babe tomorrow
yay.
20 more days to end my suffering
(:...
%#$^$%^&#$%^$
arggg~!!!
mann.
got to control my tongue.
got to control it!!!
sickening
sickening..
tomorrow got 2 presentation.
oh mann!
pray for time to pass faster between 8-12.
yesyes
atleast
i get to go out with babe tomorrow
yay.
20 more days to end my suffering
(:
Monday, January 15, 2007 | Monday, January 15, 2007
others before u?
some people tell me that i put others before me.
i dun think i am worthy of that compliment.
or maybe not anymore.
all along.
i was trying.
to care for people around me.
and i'm getting sick and tired of these.
at home. always trying to be leading.
helping around.
but mummy thinks that i dun care.
people i am close to.
stealing.. lying.. hidding.
whatever shit.
so much of growing up together.
with my friends.
always try to make time for them.
but they always find excuse to not to get their ass out.
even ur closest.
they dun find effort to look for u anymore.
and tell me why should i make the effort.
i always tell myself.
no complains cos atleast i have a big family in church.
and my big Daddy always around for me.
finefine.
i'm just not feeling good lately.
dun feel like talking much.
maybe its exam stress.
of maybe its just me.
life sucks.
yes..
i know.
what is mine comparing to others.
mandy tell me not be too bothered about others much.
atleast trys to be a lil selfish.
for urself.
if not..
i'll get depression in no time.
and yes.
i am going to be selfish.
or atleast try.
i'm going to try to be for a month.
yesyes.
maybe i shall see how it goes.
i think signs of depression is showing.
sick.
sickening.
oh well.
maybe thats life.
life on earth....
i dun think i am worthy of that compliment.
or maybe not anymore.
all along.
i was trying.
to care for people around me.
and i'm getting sick and tired of these.
at home. always trying to be leading.
helping around.
but mummy thinks that i dun care.
people i am close to.
stealing.. lying.. hidding.
whatever shit.
so much of growing up together.
with my friends.
always try to make time for them.
but they always find excuse to not to get their ass out.
even ur closest.
they dun find effort to look for u anymore.
and tell me why should i make the effort.
i always tell myself.
no complains cos atleast i have a big family in church.
and my big Daddy always around for me.
finefine.
i'm just not feeling good lately.
dun feel like talking much.
maybe its exam stress.
of maybe its just me.
life sucks.
yes..
i know.
what is mine comparing to others.
mandy tell me not be too bothered about others much.
atleast trys to be a lil selfish.
for urself.
if not..
i'll get depression in no time.
and yes.
i am going to be selfish.
or atleast try.
i'm going to try to be for a month.
yesyes.
maybe i shall see how it goes.
i think signs of depression is showing.
sick.
sickening.
oh well.
maybe thats life.
life on earth.
Sunday, January 14, 2007 | Sunday, January 14, 2007
CHEERLEAD.
to my girls:
thanks for the effort.
u all have done well.
do look out for ramdom training once a month.
love u all(:
so yea.
we've train hard.
although we didn't do as what we expected.
but we did enjoy it.
here's the pictures.
my senior girls.
the two oldies.
OUR PROGRESSION
from training.
to us in the uniform
thanks for the hard work.
here's those random picture.
like jocelyn's emo shot.
(joce shud be honoured to be here)
hahahha
to my glittery hair.
to the five pretty ladies (:
_________________________
open house was great.
Thank God for blessing us with 20 names.
and they are quite responsive.
although they are not confirm yet.
but i'll pray hard that more or less they'll be.
________________________
yesterday.
my morning was well spent.
thank u babe(:
went to church to paint.
painting for nearly 8hours is crazy.
but atleast the effort is not wasted.
from this:
to this:
...
thanks for the effort.
u all have done well.
do look out for ramdom training once a month.
love u all(:
so yea.
we've train hard.
although we didn't do as what we expected.
but we did enjoy it.
here's the pictures.
my senior girls.
the two oldies.
OUR PROGRESSION
from training.
to us in the uniform
thanks for the hard work.
here's those random picture.
like jocelyn's emo shot.
(joce shud be honoured to be here)
hahahha
to my glittery hair.
to the five pretty ladies (:
_________________________
open house was great.
Thank God for blessing us with 20 names.
and they are quite responsive.
although they are not confirm yet.
but i'll pray hard that more or less they'll be.
________________________
yesterday.
my morning was well spent.
thank u babe(:
went to church to paint.
painting for nearly 8hours is crazy.
but atleast the effort is not wasted.
from this:
to this:
aren't we great!?
was super tired.
today.
had worship training.
then headed down to the wing again.
more painting to be done.
so tiring.
reach home in the evening.
then slept.
woke up
watch a good show.
then here i am.
mann.
i didn't study today and yesterday.
):
disappointing.
alrightalright.
tomorrow will be a new week.
so looking forward to it.
yesyes.
tata(:
Saturday, January 13, 2007 | Saturday, January 13, 2007
ONEhappyFAMILY?
happy family.
how i wish i could have one.
how i wish i can be like leslie.
always going out to have dinner as a family.
how i wish i can be like shamon.
always going out together as a family.
its not that i'm blaming anyone one for not having a daddy.
but its just that sometime.
i just wish to have a normal family.
somebody in the family that can disipline the child.
somebody to make decisions.
i do love my mummy.
she did her job as a loving mother.
i know its hard for her to take up both role of a parent.
although everytime i say " its between u both, i dun wanna care"
but deep inside.
do u know i do.
u dun know.
its not that i dun wanna step up.
its just that i want u to be step up as a mom to disipline him.
i know its hards for u.
but u got to try.
and to my brother:
please. can u please grow up. i'm sick of all this.
from young till now.
can u just be a nice son.
how much do u wan us to suffer with u.
when can u stop being selfish and care about the people around u.
when?~
i wan a normal family.
i just wan all of us to be happy at home.
is that so much to ask for.
why can't u appreciate.
or when will u start to.
stop only caring about urself.
i have had enough.
wanted to post about the cheerlead stuff.
but not in the mood to do so....
how i wish i could have one.
how i wish i can be like leslie.
always going out to have dinner as a family.
how i wish i can be like shamon.
always going out together as a family.
its not that i'm blaming anyone one for not having a daddy.
but its just that sometime.
i just wish to have a normal family.
somebody in the family that can disipline the child.
somebody to make decisions.
i do love my mummy.
she did her job as a loving mother.
i know its hard for her to take up both role of a parent.
although everytime i say " its between u both, i dun wanna care"
but deep inside.
do u know i do.
u dun know.
its not that i dun wanna step up.
its just that i want u to be step up as a mom to disipline him.
i know its hards for u.
but u got to try.
and to my brother:
please. can u please grow up. i'm sick of all this.
from young till now.
can u just be a nice son.
how much do u wan us to suffer with u.
when can u stop being selfish and care about the people around u.
when?~
i wan a normal family.
i just wan all of us to be happy at home.
is that so much to ask for.
why can't u appreciate.
or when will u start to.
stop only caring about urself.
i have had enough.
wanted to post about the cheerlead stuff.
but not in the mood to do so.
Wednesday, January 10, 2007 | Wednesday, January 10, 2007
No Matter What.
No matter what.
i still love my girls.
today.
i raise my voice at my two deary.
i was angry.
just hate it why can't they dun be selfish.
why~
i put in so much effort.
make sure that everything will be done well.
carried 15 set of uniform to school.
so super damm heavy.
thank God for enci.
but what do i get.
people giving excuses and not come for training.
how sad is that.
atleast appreciate what i do for u all.
and simply just turn up for training.
if u all are not interested.
just let me know.
u can be unhappy with this person.
but this is the world.
no matter how much u dun like her.
got to bear with it.
got to live on with it.
and if u cannot set ur priority right.
then please tell me.
i dun wanna waste my effort and time on u.
i dun wanna force u to come also.
but no matter what.
i still love the two of u.
sorry for raising my voice to u both.
__________________
its been a long time since i've raise my voice on anyone.
feel damm guilty though.
but atleast this last training turn out well(:
we all did enjoy.
_________________
No matter what.
people are constantly changing.
i wonder why.
because of people around them.
why can't u be urself.
i know its hard to not get influence.
but atleast.
stand up for urself when u are not dong anything good to urself.
whatever it is.
i can only tell u all
at the end of the day.
it is u urself that suffer.
i'll try to talk to u.
i hope that u will stop smoking.
no matter what.
i still love u.
i still love my baby too.
and sherr.
although we hardly spend time together.
we know that we still dear each other.
i just miss those days that we can laze together.
simply doing nothing at jes's place.
its all about making effort.
_______________
no matter what.
babe.
u are still the one i want to be with.
been thinking for quite awhile.
i want to let my cell mummy know about u first.
she dears me.
i dun wanna disappoint her.
even though its so sad to hear from ur fren
that we are not meant for each other.
but like what u say.
at the end of the day.
its still up to the both of us.
yes.
and no matter what.
i still love u.
_____________
no matter what.
my dearest cousins.
even though.
things aren't going well.
i hope that u all will still stand by each other.
i guess we are the closest to each other.
from young.
very young till now.
my whole life.
we've been together.
and i know u all are mydearest of the dearest.
dearer than any of my fren.
cos i know.
no matter what.
u all will stand in for me.
because i will also!
sorry for not able to spend enough time with u all.
but i guess its the effort.
i can always pop by mandy work place once in a while.
or just visit cassiedeary at her work place.
or give each other a call once in a while.
sorry for not making the effort.
oh mann,
so many sorry in one blog.
i love to appreciate people.
but i dunno how to express myself at times.
or maybe no time to express it.
i like to love people.
but i dun think i got time for them all.
even those people that i hardly talk to.
like cherie, mel, diana, jocex, jolene.. .. ..
all my lil babies.
yesyes.
talk is cheap.
action speak louder than word.
what to do.
pray for more time.
heheh.
yesyes.
alright.
a few test is over.
bad.
esp having my percentage of error 2thousand.
sickeing.
but nevermind.
i'm still studying hard.
i want to do well.
for myself.
at the end of the day
it'll only benefit me.
still trying hard.
performance on friday.
my babies!
please dun injured urself this few days.
take good care.
(:
tomorrow will be another day.
just now when i step out of the train at 8pm.
first thought that came.
"in less than 12hours.
i'll be here again.
waiting for train to go school"
feeling: disgusted!
mann.
i dread to long journey.
alrightalright.
no matter what.
life still goes on.
" no matter what"
inspired by jo's blog's song.
tata(:...
this is the exact painting i saw at krabi....
i still love my girls.
today.
i raise my voice at my two deary.
i was angry.
just hate it why can't they dun be selfish.
why~
i put in so much effort.
make sure that everything will be done well.
carried 15 set of uniform to school.
so super damm heavy.
thank God for enci.
but what do i get.
people giving excuses and not come for training.
how sad is that.
atleast appreciate what i do for u all.
and simply just turn up for training.
if u all are not interested.
just let me know.
u can be unhappy with this person.
but this is the world.
no matter how much u dun like her.
got to bear with it.
got to live on with it.
and if u cannot set ur priority right.
then please tell me.
i dun wanna waste my effort and time on u.
i dun wanna force u to come also.
but no matter what.
i still love the two of u.
sorry for raising my voice to u both.
__________________
its been a long time since i've raise my voice on anyone.
feel damm guilty though.
but atleast this last training turn out well(:
we all did enjoy.
_________________
No matter what.
people are constantly changing.
i wonder why.
because of people around them.
why can't u be urself.
i know its hard to not get influence.
but atleast.
stand up for urself when u are not dong anything good to urself.
whatever it is.
i can only tell u all
at the end of the day.
it is u urself that suffer.
i'll try to talk to u.
i hope that u will stop smoking.
no matter what.
i still love u.
i still love my baby too.
and sherr.
although we hardly spend time together.
we know that we still dear each other.
i just miss those days that we can laze together.
simply doing nothing at jes's place.
its all about making effort.
_______________
no matter what.
babe.
u are still the one i want to be with.
been thinking for quite awhile.
i want to let my cell mummy know about u first.
she dears me.
i dun wanna disappoint her.
even though its so sad to hear from ur fren
that we are not meant for each other.
but like what u say.
at the end of the day.
its still up to the both of us.
yes.
and no matter what.
i still love u.
_____________
no matter what.
my dearest cousins.
even though.
things aren't going well.
i hope that u all will still stand by each other.
i guess we are the closest to each other.
from young.
very young till now.
my whole life.
we've been together.
and i know u all are mydearest of the dearest.
dearer than any of my fren.
cos i know.
no matter what.
u all will stand in for me.
because i will also!
sorry for not able to spend enough time with u all.
but i guess its the effort.
i can always pop by mandy work place once in a while.
or just visit cassiedeary at her work place.
or give each other a call once in a while.
sorry for not making the effort.
oh mann,
so many sorry in one blog.
i love to appreciate people.
but i dunno how to express myself at times.
or maybe no time to express it.
i like to love people.
but i dun think i got time for them all.
even those people that i hardly talk to.
like cherie, mel, diana, jocex, jolene.. .. ..
all my lil babies.
yesyes.
talk is cheap.
action speak louder than word.
what to do.
pray for more time.
heheh.
yesyes.
alright.
a few test is over.
bad.
esp having my percentage of error 2thousand.
sickeing.
but nevermind.
i'm still studying hard.
i want to do well.
for myself.
at the end of the day
it'll only benefit me.
still trying hard.
performance on friday.
my babies!
please dun injured urself this few days.
take good care.
(:
tomorrow will be another day.
just now when i step out of the train at 8pm.
first thought that came.
"in less than 12hours.
i'll be here again.
waiting for train to go school"
feeling: disgusted!
mann.
i dread to long journey.
alrightalright.
no matter what.
life still goes on.
" no matter what"
inspired by jo's blog's song.
tata(:
Sunday, January 07, 2007 | Sunday, January 07, 2007
first sunday of the year.
church was good.
except for that velle is not there.
due to her fren staying over at her place.
(velle if u are reading this. the verse below is good for u.
the eighth line.)
heard from maine that u shud be enjoying her stay.
hahahh.
this verse really minster to me alot.
about serving.
and about how i shud be loving people around me and not forgetting them and take them for granted.
serving:
seriously speaking.
i'm super unsure myself.
i dunno if i can make time for it.
or maybe enough time for it.
i dunno if i can do it well.
i dunno if i will be able to lead the girls and be one good role model for them.
i'm scared.
i got school.
family.
friends.
alotalot other more things that takes up my time.
Love:
i was guilty for not making enough time for my baby.
not showering her enough of love.
for sherr. my bestie. i'm scared that i might neglect her.
my mummy too.
i shud really start to love and appreciate people around me.
this verse really meant something to me.
thank you my lovely BIGGUY.
The end of all things is near.
Therefore be clear minded
and self-controlled
so that you can pray.
Above all,
love each other deeply
because love covers over a multitude of sins.
Offer hospitality to one another
without grumbling.
Each one should use whatever gift
he has received to serve others,
faithfully adminsistering
God's grace in its various forms.
If anyone speaks,
he should do it as one speaking
the very words of God.
If anyone serves,
he should do it with
the strength God provides,
so that in all things God
may be praised through Jesus christ.
To Him be the glory
and the power for ever and ever.
Amen.
1 peter 4:7-11
cheerleading
our routine is looking more and more
up to the standard for performance.
the company is willing to pay
for the girls
the other half of the uniform.
thank God.
if not i'll be really dead.
u wouldn't know.
how worried i was.
so it'll b 3 minute.
one dance.
one cheer.
7 set of stunts.
woo~
sounds fun isn't it.
but one 3 minute performance
cost us 12 training.
crazycrazy.
tsktsk.
i'm looking forward to the performance
on friday.
look forward to it guys.
u'll be very impressed(:
hahhahaha.
cheerobics competition is coming up.
going for the open team?
u wish.
not even up to the standard.
hahah.
sad isn't it.
but we shud start going for competition.
to prove to the school that we are one good team.
and start giving us money!!!
and the back flip.
still far from it.
i hurt my back while trying to do that.
but its fun though.
hehe.
online shopping is fun.
all thanks to sherr.
now my bank account is going to suffer.
temptation.
fleefleeflee.
but not today.
hahaha.
maybe when i got no money.
now got to wait for sherr to come online.
saw afew more other bags.
BUT!
hai~
nevermind.
this is the exact painting i saw at krabi.how nice!~
i wan that in my room!
okayokay.
so not looking forward to school tomorrow.
test on monday.
tuesday
AND wednesday.
what a way to for school to reopen.
but nevermind.
atleast i get to see my baby and babe in school.
maybe i won't be that bad.
hai~
still waiting for cherie low to send me the pictures!
tata(:
Friday, January 05, 2007 | Friday, January 05, 2007
GreatWeek spent.
what had happen to yvonne.
disappeared for 4 days.
lets talk about all the good stuff.
this week is suppose to be my dreadful study week.
end up enjoying it more than ever.
2ndJAN:
met up with babe
went to study at the library.
was looking forward to my nice pot of tea.
saddly the cafe weren't open.
manage to study abit.
or atleast.
manage to get two formula in my head.
good progress.
then went down to marina.
had a nice lunch/dinner.
longJohn, saw upskirt. yucks*.
change to another table.
wanted to study.
then decided to go back to the library.
manage to do one more tutorial.
then started chatting.
there were people practising piano.
they were great.
and it reminds me of my violin.
when will i get to learn it.
i foresee that my results will suck another big time.
sickening.
but i'll try i guess.
went to the bay.
manage to listen to a few band.
and there are quite good ones.
maybe local bands aren't that bad afterall.
babe was unhappy.
so we had to change to another place.
hahah.
so as to satisfied him.
wahaha.
bought a drink
sat there.
chat.
i lost so i get to send him back on thursday.
yay!~
he wasn't very happy that he won.
hahaha.
then he embark on his long journey
to send me home then send himself back.
one great evening spent!
3rdJAN.
woke up early.
went to meet my babe at the airport.
did a few tutorial.
and i manage to get my jellybeans!!
so happy~
bought lot'sa it.
so that my scary girls will not be able to finish them all.
hehehe~
then headed down to school for training.
after training.
went to jo's place.
chatted with her.
then one by one the rest of them
start to appear themselves.
was quite glad that atleast the
few of them make the effort the be there.
esp for yun.
haven seen her for dunno how many hundred years.
manage to catch up abit.
and also seeing how chel and jing
shooting at each other is quite fun.
then went for late dinner.
had coconut drink. yumyum*
then headed to chel's place.
waited for her to pack her stuff and get change.
then headed to my place.
at my place.
we manage to talk abit.
scolded my baby.
drink abit.
then the two lazy bums complain that they are sleepy.
so they went to bed.
4thJAN
early morning.
wake that two bums up.
then headed back to bed.
that whole morning.
my eyes was super swollen.
so damm irritating.
u can never imagine that.
sickening.
i almost used up the whole eyedrop.
postpone the meeting time again and again.
then finally manage to get myself out of the house.
looking more or less like an idiot
with one eye bigger than the other.
met babe at the mrt.
was later for like 15mins.
so sorry babe.
then headed to the library.
and i finally get my nice pot of tea.
and nachos(:
studied there.
my math is really getting from bad to worse.
makes me feel stupid.
i was so proud of myself for predicting the weather and babe wasn't convince that it was going to rain until he see that big passing cloud.
hehehe~
then my date start.
his plan was kinda ruin by the weather.
but after deciding where to go for a longlong time.
we finally decided to go ahead.
told him the the passing cloud would have pass thru eastcoast already but he again.
didn't want to believe me.
he called home and~
I'm right!
it stopped raining over there.
tsktsk.
shud have trust me from the very beginning.
so proud of myself!
hahah~
so yea.
head down to eastcoast.
had a dumbdumbdinner.
so not worth it.
but atleast the company was nice.
then went to the beach.
sat there and chat.
had all those rubbish talk.
then decided to head back to somewhere near my busstop.
so incase i miss the bus.
supposingly to be my turn to send babe home.
if not for the frogs.
i would have insist to walk u home.
but nevermind.
i'll always have another chance.
heheh~
so yea.
another great evening.
its always nice just to sit down
and enjoy each other's company.
no need any fancy plans.
thanks for everything babe.
sorry to make u so broke.
sometimes i really feel like telling u.
lets be together and dun consider too much of other things.
but i know i can't.
too much things to worry about.
sorry to give u so much of trouble babe.
_________________
the bad stuff.
i'm kinda screwed up for a few things.
firstly is the cheerleading uniform.
the school refuse the subsidise the girls uniform.
had some miscommunication.
and ended up.
the officers unhappy with it.
the girls can't afford it.
and i got to pay up very soon.
this suck a big time.
so what shall i do.
see if can use their edusave.
most probably not.
praying veryhard that Gb can subsidise their uniform.
i'm in deep trouble.
so sickening to be standing alone.
worse come to worse.work and pay the aunty back.
sickeningsickening.
anyhow.
hopefully that HE will make a way out.
then secondly.
i haven plan out the girl's 2007 programme.
people rushing me.
and i know that i am slow.
maybe later?
thirdly.
my presentation.
been working on it.
but yet.
haven really started doing it.
maybe later?
then.
hoping to finish up my math paper by this weekend.
i hope i can do it.
then.
upcoming test.
not really prepared for it.
worse thing is.
dunno what to study for it.
lastly.
audition on monday.
i can't make it.
super damm sucky.
wonder how will they be able to pull it thru.
i realise that i suck at getting things done and do it well.
wonder how i will be able to pull it thru for the next five years.
gosh.
well.
shall pray very hard and see how it goes.
________________________
to my baby:
baby..
i hope that u can pull it thru.
i'm sorry for not being there for u when u needed me to.
sorry for not being a goodfren.
sorry for not spending enough them with u.
but i really hope that u know what urself is doing.
got to really think.
19years old to be already.
not a childish 16yr old anymore yea~
i promise u that i'll try to make time for u.
but u got to promise me to be good.
atleast start to learn to go back to HIM.
dun disappoint and give up on HIM.
okay baby.
u taught me be a good christian.
and i hope u do what u taught me to.
do ur quiet time.
pray.
i really treasure this frenship.
i hope u know that.
i know that u love him.
but baby.
sometimes.
its not just loving the person.
i know u are far too stubborn to listen to what i've said.
and it do take time for u to recover.
just dun make any dumbdumb decisions.
and~
forgive me for not able to make time for u.
i'm sorry again.
take care baby.
shall see if i can meet up with u in school.
_________________...
disappeared for 4 days.
lets talk about all the good stuff.
this week is suppose to be my dreadful study week.
end up enjoying it more than ever.
2ndJAN:
met up with babe
went to study at the library.
was looking forward to my nice pot of tea.
saddly the cafe weren't open.
manage to study abit.
or atleast.
manage to get two formula in my head.
good progress.
then went down to marina.
had a nice lunch/dinner.
longJohn, saw upskirt. yucks*.
change to another table.
wanted to study.
then decided to go back to the library.
manage to do one more tutorial.
then started chatting.
there were people practising piano.
they were great.
and it reminds me of my violin.
when will i get to learn it.
i foresee that my results will suck another big time.
sickening.
but i'll try i guess.
went to the bay.
manage to listen to a few band.
and there are quite good ones.
maybe local bands aren't that bad afterall.
babe was unhappy.
so we had to change to another place.
hahah.
so as to satisfied him.
wahaha.
bought a drink
sat there.
chat.
i lost so i get to send him back on thursday.
yay!~
he wasn't very happy that he won.
hahaha.
then he embark on his long journey
to send me home then send himself back.
one great evening spent!
3rdJAN.
woke up early.
went to meet my babe at the airport.
did a few tutorial.
and i manage to get my jellybeans!!
so happy~
bought lot'sa it.
so that my scary girls will not be able to finish them all.
hehehe~
then headed down to school for training.
after training.
went to jo's place.
chatted with her.
then one by one the rest of them
start to appear themselves.
was quite glad that atleast the
few of them make the effort the be there.
esp for yun.
haven seen her for dunno how many hundred years.
manage to catch up abit.
and also seeing how chel and jing
shooting at each other is quite fun.
then went for late dinner.
had coconut drink. yumyum*
then headed to chel's place.
waited for her to pack her stuff and get change.
then headed to my place.
at my place.
we manage to talk abit.
scolded my baby.
drink abit.
then the two lazy bums complain that they are sleepy.
so they went to bed.
4thJAN
early morning.
wake that two bums up.
then headed back to bed.
that whole morning.
my eyes was super swollen.
so damm irritating.
u can never imagine that.
sickening.
i almost used up the whole eyedrop.
postpone the meeting time again and again.
then finally manage to get myself out of the house.
looking more or less like an idiot
with one eye bigger than the other.
met babe at the mrt.
was later for like 15mins.
so sorry babe.
then headed to the library.
and i finally get my nice pot of tea.
and nachos(:
studied there.
my math is really getting from bad to worse.
makes me feel stupid.
i was so proud of myself for predicting the weather and babe wasn't convince that it was going to rain until he see that big passing cloud.
hehehe~
then my date start.
his plan was kinda ruin by the weather.
but after deciding where to go for a longlong time.
we finally decided to go ahead.
told him the the passing cloud would have pass thru eastcoast already but he again.
didn't want to believe me.
he called home and~
I'm right!
it stopped raining over there.
tsktsk.
shud have trust me from the very beginning.
so proud of myself!
hahah~
so yea.
head down to eastcoast.
had a dumbdumbdinner.
so not worth it.
but atleast the company was nice.
then went to the beach.
sat there and chat.
had all those rubbish talk.
then decided to head back to somewhere near my busstop.
so incase i miss the bus.
supposingly to be my turn to send babe home.
if not for the frogs.
i would have insist to walk u home.
but nevermind.
i'll always have another chance.
heheh~
so yea.
another great evening.
its always nice just to sit down
and enjoy each other's company.
no need any fancy plans.
thanks for everything babe.
sorry to make u so broke.
sometimes i really feel like telling u.
lets be together and dun consider too much of other things.
but i know i can't.
too much things to worry about.
sorry to give u so much of trouble babe.
_________________
the bad stuff.
i'm kinda screwed up for a few things.
firstly is the cheerleading uniform.
the school refuse the subsidise the girls uniform.
had some miscommunication.
and ended up.
the officers unhappy with it.
the girls can't afford it.
and i got to pay up very soon.
this suck a big time.
so what shall i do.
see if can use their edusave.
most probably not.
praying veryhard that Gb can subsidise their uniform.
i'm in deep trouble.
so sickening to be standing alone.
worse come to worse.work and pay the aunty back.
sickeningsickening.
anyhow.
hopefully that HE will make a way out.
then secondly.
i haven plan out the girl's 2007 programme.
people rushing me.
and i know that i am slow.
maybe later?
thirdly.
my presentation.
been working on it.
but yet.
haven really started doing it.
maybe later?
then.
hoping to finish up my math paper by this weekend.
i hope i can do it.
then.
upcoming test.
not really prepared for it.
worse thing is.
dunno what to study for it.
lastly.
audition on monday.
i can't make it.
super damm sucky.
wonder how will they be able to pull it thru.
i realise that i suck at getting things done and do it well.
wonder how i will be able to pull it thru for the next five years.
gosh.
well.
shall pray very hard and see how it goes.
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to my baby:
baby..
i hope that u can pull it thru.
i'm sorry for not being there for u when u needed me to.
sorry for not being a goodfren.
sorry for not spending enough them with u.
but i really hope that u know what urself is doing.
got to really think.
19years old to be already.
not a childish 16yr old anymore yea~
i promise u that i'll try to make time for u.
but u got to promise me to be good.
atleast start to learn to go back to HIM.
dun disappoint and give up on HIM.
okay baby.
u taught me be a good christian.
and i hope u do what u taught me to.
do ur quiet time.
pray.
i really treasure this frenship.
i hope u know that.
i know that u love him.
but baby.
sometimes.
its not just loving the person.
i know u are far too stubborn to listen to what i've said.
and it do take time for u to recover.
just dun make any dumbdumb decisions.
and~
forgive me for not able to make time for u.
i'm sorry again.
take care baby.
shall see if i can meet up with u in school.
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Monday, January 01, 2007 | Monday, January 01, 2007
WELCOME ALL TO 2007!!!
year2007?
looking forward to it.
initially.
was super dreadful for the year to come.
HE made me realise that.
what is my life compared to others.
count ur blessings name them one by one.
count ur blessing see what God has done.
(:
so here i am.
glad that i am able to live thru 2006
have true frens like sherr. velle and all.
my baby like jo.
and besties like les and gang.
and ofcourse i met him.
its isn't that bad afterall.
mummy still love me.
i still love my cousins and all.
and melf is still alive(:
yup.
for year 2007.
i want to spend more time with my family.
esp my mummy(:
i love her very much.
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so how was my new year eve.
the good:)
spending time with my dearest fren.
cycling like mad.
relax by the beach.
didn't rain the whole afternoon.
had a crazy roadtrip to esplanade.
waving and chatting to random people.
awesom firworks display.
had a great chat with babe till early morning.
the bad:(
chain broke while cycling.
complain and whin too much the whole evening.
drench while waiting for fireworks.
okay. so here's the pictures
me and sherr.
and this sickening bike.
we three.
and we three.
(okay~ i was distracted)
Enjoying our bottle of hooch(:
corin and yvonne
Mandy and me.
(yilling wants to eat me,
ain't von too sweet for her to resist!hahahh)
von and yilling!
woke up at 2pm.
had brunch.
did housework.
yilling and lil rechelle came over to accompany me.
went for dinner.
then movie.
spending time with cousins.
mummy.
i love it.
sometimes.
i dun need fancy plan.
i love to stay home.
night at the museum is good(:
so tomorrow
i shall study.
as i promise myself that i will study hard this whole week.
although i know that i can't get the results i wan.
but i will still try my best.
atleast i won't feel guilty.
yesyesyes.
i hope yvonne will do what she has just said.
hahahah~
alrighty.
have one great new year ahead my love ones!...
looking forward to it.
initially.
was super dreadful for the year to come.
HE made me realise that.
what is my life compared to others.
count ur blessings name them one by one.
count ur blessing see what God has done.
(:
so here i am.
glad that i am able to live thru 2006
have true frens like sherr. velle and all.
my baby like jo.
and besties like les and gang.
and ofcourse i met him.
its isn't that bad afterall.
mummy still love me.
i still love my cousins and all.
and melf is still alive(:
yup.
for year 2007.
i want to spend more time with my family.
esp my mummy(:
i love her very much.
__________________
so how was my new year eve.
the good:)
spending time with my dearest fren.
cycling like mad.
relax by the beach.
didn't rain the whole afternoon.
had a crazy roadtrip to esplanade.
waving and chatting to random people.
awesom firworks display.
had a great chat with babe till early morning.
the bad:(
chain broke while cycling.
complain and whin too much the whole evening.
drench while waiting for fireworks.
okay. so here's the pictures
me and sherr.
and this sickening bike.
we three.
and we three.
(okay~ i was distracted)
Enjoying our bottle of hooch(:
corin and yvonne
Mandy and me.
(yilling wants to eat me,
ain't von too sweet for her to resist!hahahh)
von and yilling!
woke up at 2pm.
had brunch.
did housework.
yilling and lil rechelle came over to accompany me.
went for dinner.
then movie.
spending time with cousins.
mummy.
i love it.
sometimes.
i dun need fancy plan.
i love to stay home.
night at the museum is good(:
so tomorrow
i shall study.
as i promise myself that i will study hard this whole week.
although i know that i can't get the results i wan.
but i will still try my best.
atleast i won't feel guilty.
yesyesyes.
i hope yvonne will do what she has just said.
hahahah~
alrighty.
have one great new year ahead my love ones!