disappeared for 4 days.
lets talk about all the good stuff.
this week is suppose to be my dreadful study week.
end up enjoying it more than ever.
2ndJAN:
met up with babe
went to study at the library.
was looking forward to my nice pot of tea.
saddly the cafe weren't open.
manage to study abit.
or atleast.
manage to get two formula in my head.
good progress.
then went down to marina.
had a nice lunch/dinner.
longJohn, saw upskirt. yucks*.
change to another table.
wanted to study.
then decided to go back to the library.
manage to do one more tutorial.
then started chatting.
there were people practising piano.
they were great.
and it reminds me of my violin.
when will i get to learn it.
i foresee that my results will suck another big time.
sickening.
but i'll try i guess.
went to the bay.
manage to listen to a few band.
and there are quite good ones.
maybe local bands aren't that bad afterall.
babe was unhappy.
so we had to change to another place.
hahah.
so as to satisfied him.
wahaha.
bought a drink
sat there.
chat.
i lost so i get to send him back on thursday.
yay!~
he wasn't very happy that he won.
hahaha.
then he embark on his long journey
to send me home then send himself back.
one great evening spent!
3rdJAN.
woke up early.
went to meet my babe at the airport.
did a few tutorial.
and i manage to get my jellybeans!!
so happy~
bought lot'sa it.
so that my scary girls will not be able to finish them all.
hehehe~
then headed down to school for training.
after training.
went to jo's place.
chatted with her.
then one by one the rest of them
start to appear themselves.
was quite glad that atleast the
few of them make the effort the be there.
esp for yun.
haven seen her for dunno how many hundred years.
manage to catch up abit.
and also seeing how chel and jing
shooting at each other is quite fun.
then went for late dinner.
had coconut drink. yumyum*
then headed to chel's place.
waited for her to pack her stuff and get change.
then headed to my place.
at my place.
we manage to talk abit.
scolded my baby.
drink abit.
then the two lazy bums complain that they are sleepy.
so they went to bed.
4thJAN
early morning.
wake that two bums up.
then headed back to bed.
that whole morning.
my eyes was super swollen.
so damm irritating.
u can never imagine that.
sickening.
i almost used up the whole eyedrop.
postpone the meeting time again and again.
then finally manage to get myself out of the house.
looking more or less like an idiot
with one eye bigger than the other.
met babe at the mrt.
was later for like 15mins.
so sorry babe.
then headed to the library.
and i finally get my nice pot of tea.
and nachos(:
studied there.
my math is really getting from bad to worse.
makes me feel stupid.
i was so proud of myself for predicting the weather and babe wasn't convince that it was going to rain until he see that big passing cloud.
hehehe~
then my date start.
his plan was kinda ruin by the weather.
but after deciding where to go for a longlong time.
we finally decided to go ahead.
told him the the passing cloud would have pass thru eastcoast already but he again.
didn't want to believe me.
he called home and~
I'm right!
it stopped raining over there.
tsktsk.
shud have trust me from the very beginning.
so proud of myself!
hahah~
so yea.
head down to eastcoast.
had a dumbdumbdinner.
so not worth it.
but atleast the company was nice.
then went to the beach.
sat there and chat.
had all those rubbish talk.
then decided to head back to somewhere near my busstop.
so incase i miss the bus.
supposingly to be my turn to send babe home.
if not for the frogs.
i would have insist to walk u home.
but nevermind.
i'll always have another chance.
heheh~
so yea.
another great evening.
its always nice just to sit down
and enjoy each other's company.
no need any fancy plans.
thanks for everything babe.
sorry to make u so broke.
sometimes i really feel like telling u.
lets be together and dun consider too much of other things.
but i know i can't.
too much things to worry about.
sorry to give u so much of trouble babe.
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the bad stuff.
i'm kinda screwed up for a few things.
firstly is the cheerleading uniform.
the school refuse the subsidise the girls uniform.
had some miscommunication.
and ended up.
the officers unhappy with it.
the girls can't afford it.
and i got to pay up very soon.
this suck a big time.
so what shall i do.
see if can use their edusave.
most probably not.
praying veryhard that Gb can subsidise their uniform.
i'm in deep trouble.
so sickening to be standing alone.
worse come to worse.work and pay the aunty back.
sickeningsickening.
anyhow.
hopefully that HE will make a way out.
then secondly.
i haven plan out the girl's 2007 programme.
people rushing me.
and i know that i am slow.
maybe later?
thirdly.
my presentation.
been working on it.
but yet.
haven really started doing it.
maybe later?
then.
hoping to finish up my math paper by this weekend.
i hope i can do it.
then.
upcoming test.
not really prepared for it.
worse thing is.
dunno what to study for it.
lastly.
audition on monday.
i can't make it.
super damm sucky.
wonder how will they be able to pull it thru.
i realise that i suck at getting things done and do it well.
wonder how i will be able to pull it thru for the next five years.
gosh.
well.
shall pray very hard and see how it goes.
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to my baby:
baby..
i hope that u can pull it thru.
i'm sorry for not being there for u when u needed me to.
sorry for not being a goodfren.
sorry for not spending enough them with u.
but i really hope that u know what urself is doing.
got to really think.
19years old to be already.
not a childish 16yr old anymore yea~
i promise u that i'll try to make time for u.
but u got to promise me to be good.
atleast start to learn to go back to HIM.
dun disappoint and give up on HIM.
okay baby.
u taught me be a good christian.
and i hope u do what u taught me to.
do ur quiet time.
pray.
i really treasure this frenship.
i hope u know that.
i know that u love him.
but baby.
sometimes.
its not just loving the person.
i know u are far too stubborn to listen to what i've said.
and it do take time for u to recover.
just dun make any dumbdumb decisions.
and~
forgive me for not able to make time for u.
i'm sorry again.
take care baby.
shall see if i can meet up with u in school.
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