It's all chasing after the wind
-ecc.
coach once told me,
you can easily differentiate if the person is from a broken family
when the person is under stress.
They cannot handle it as well.
till now,
i've been TRYING to prove that it's not true.
I guess it might be true that we can't handle it very well.
but one thing i'm sure is that it will always just make us stronger.
i suddenly realise the seriousness of what my family is into now.
how my decision whether to further my studies might affect,
how if i don't start to earn a living for my family will ruin things at home.
i've never liked how things are run at home,
how un-planned my mum is,
how my brother contribute in many wrong ways.
many times it just felt as if it's so super unfair to me.
God assured me that His plans are not to harm me,
but to make me better
and i have to learn to trust totally in Him.
think i've got to come out with some plans
meanwhile praying that God will bring me thru this phase.
and i trust that it's just a phase.
i feel so lag behind with all my assignments, project and things that i have to complete.
i really can't cope well now.
Give me strength Lord.
:(