wanted to buy chrismas gift..
borrowed money from my mom..
paying her back after i get my pay..
guess wad i bought..
a white -top from mango
and a spag-top from zara..
and spent on cab..
lunch..
drink(that dumb apple juice)
AND that empty my wallet..
haha..
without buyin any christmas gift..
maybe i'm just a poor girl
i didn't mean to spent it all..
evil grin*
had cheerleading today..
till 12.30..
cos some media.c artist going to practise..
so had to leave early..
so tired..
everyday sleep at 12 plus.. and thats the earliest..
hopping to find a day that i can really sleep and rest..
anyway..
wanted to to go bugis to shop for christmas gift..
but that lazy velle who suggested to go tell us that she is tired..
haha.. but i think its lazy..
then went to school to help out mr jon to take pics for recruitment..
the girls were unwilling..
but atleast were co-operative..
Thanks mel and joyx and P5s girls..
today was like.. cheerleading-go school-go home bath-go out for dinner-went to practice for worship tomorrow-wrap presents-
FINALLY NOW BLOGGING
No rest.. so tired..
was pissed by those girls who couldn't be trusted..
told me that they could come but in the end didn't turn up..
u got ur own stuff..
i had mine too..
i can and were willing to give it up for u all and trainings...
but wad about u all..
somebody still said:
" I want to go and play.. i would rather go and play than stay for training.."
Darn!... ... sickening!!!
if u can't commit.. then don't!
My mom was like..
why are u just working 2 days a week..
ME: i want to earn more money.. lessen ur burden..
but i got committments too..
everytime when i go for training..
and i see little people..
i'll be like..
i shud have work today..
but nvm..
i choose this road..
and i love it although there's some torns on the way
but i still love to girls..
nobody is perfect except GOD..
like me.. shud be willingly serving God..
why am i complaining down here..
sinning nature.. ):
I really hope that he'll be a Godly man..
i don't want to give up just like this..
God.. why am i always like that..
i'm really sorry for making u sad..
but i'm really trying..
All i want for christmas is him to love u more..
tomorrow i'll be serving..
guitarist..
how i wish that he'll be there..
encouraging me
"Well done von~ continue to serve in HIM"
but i know he won't!
ask him whether he is going for service..
he said dunno..
but i'm sure.. very sure.. its a no..
b'cos everyweek.. he tells me the same thing..
but..
he never turn up..
obviously..
he doesn't wanna go..
i'm messed up..
isn't this long break is for me to sort out myself..
why am i making things worst..
i love that warm hug u gave..
that u let me know that u'll be there for me..
but.. how long will u..
how long can u..
how can i be convince..
when u and i are different..
letting go meant that u had it before..
will i be heartbroken again this christmas God?
i tot he'll rebuke me.. but..
-v0n-
still loves HIM and him