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Monday, August 16, 2010 | Monday, August 16, 2010
f
Funny how I thought I had alot,
yet I had none.
Even maybe if I had afew,
I can fit them within my five counts.
These few years particularly,
I learnt that things change like the wind.
Memories and past aint matter that much because what it is set before you and felt are real.
Many times I pretend that it is not, that I am the sensitive party.
After all, it takes two hands to clap.
Dear f,
when will I be able to have one like I used to have.
I miss you and yearn for what we used to share.
I hate the society for putting people together and separating them differently.
Maybe I should have held on it, but I always believe that it should comes naturally.
Having been gone through years of this, I know that I should have come to term with myself and not let it affect me. dear f, today I have decided to let you go. I am glad and I cherish whatever we used to share. I will not get upset, temperamental and pretend that I am part of you all. I hate to be excluded while everyone else thinks that we are all together, this is part of the reason how I wish I can leave all this behind and fly somewhere far away. Well, I guess the silver lining out of this gloomy cloud is that I have become more independent, breaking away from cliques and more willing to mingle around with everybody else.
I know I can build it with so many other more but I know I should only seek the ones whom we share the same belief.
In my life I met and share with my best five, yet not all disappoints.
don't worry, I stand strong still and will not be seeking it out for any more of these.
This is not a goodbye but the new start of this....
I was determine to get out of my bed at 8.15am
to enjoy morning with hot breakfast and quiet time with God.
However I hated the overslept mornings and warm noon to wake up to,
I have never ever able to wake up early on weekends. Well, I did it today and I hope that I can do this ever weekend morning. 7 hours of sleep is enough, and 8 hours of sleep is a luxury, anything more than that is simply lazy.
I am considering netbook between VIOS or HP. Been really wanting a Mac book but considering that the I am gonna pay $1300 for my next module, i better strike that thought off my mind. Get what I need first. If I have another extra thousand, I would consider the Olympus camera before anything else first. I really really want this:
Alright, I ought to be back rushing my school work and one million of other things to be done by tomorrow....
yet I had none.
Even maybe if I had afew,
I can fit them within my five counts.
These few years particularly,
I learnt that things change like the wind.
Memories and past aint matter that much because what it is set before you and felt are real.
Many times I pretend that it is not, that I am the sensitive party.
After all, it takes two hands to clap.
Dear f,
when will I be able to have one like I used to have.
I miss you and yearn for what we used to share.
I hate the society for putting people together and separating them differently.
Maybe I should have held on it, but I always believe that it should comes naturally.
Having been gone through years of this, I know that I should have come to term with myself and not let it affect me. dear f, today I have decided to let you go. I am glad and I cherish whatever we used to share. I will not get upset, temperamental and pretend that I am part of you all. I hate to be excluded while everyone else thinks that we are all together, this is part of the reason how I wish I can leave all this behind and fly somewhere far away. Well, I guess the silver lining out of this gloomy cloud is that I have become more independent, breaking away from cliques and more willing to mingle around with everybody else.
I know I can build it with so many other more but I know I should only seek the ones whom we share the same belief.
In my life I met and share with my best five, yet not all disappoints.
don't worry, I stand strong still and will not be seeking it out for any more of these.
This is not a goodbye but the new start of this.
Saturday, August 14, 2010 | Saturday, August 14, 2010
sunshine through my window
I was determine to get out of my bed at 8.15am
to enjoy morning with hot breakfast and quiet time with God.
However I hated the overslept mornings and warm noon to wake up to,
I have never ever able to wake up early on weekends. Well, I did it today and I hope that I can do this ever weekend morning. 7 hours of sleep is enough, and 8 hours of sleep is a luxury, anything more than that is simply lazy.
I am considering netbook between VIOS or HP. Been really wanting a Mac book but considering that the I am gonna pay $1300 for my next module, i better strike that thought off my mind. Get what I need first. If I have another extra thousand, I would consider the Olympus camera before anything else first. I really really want this:
Alright, I ought to be back rushing my school work and one million of other things to be done by tomorrow.
Friday, August 13, 2010 | Friday, August 13, 2010
as fast as a choo-choo train
My life is moving at 7 times to speed of sound, one moment I am conscious of doing this particular thing but the next moment I found myself busy with another thing. It's like you didn't realise how the transition of different tasks take place.
How I wish the pace could be slower, slower for me to look at the world
enjoy it's colour and listen to the sound of nature. I need to take a breather.
I hope I don't grow to despise this lifestyle, how things are moving faster than I am,
how I am constantly catching up with everything else. I realise how my body has grown to become so lazy, constantly setting a lower standard for everything that I do.
Maybe it's time that I should put working at the childcare to an end. I want to make it good while it lasted and not working at a lower standard. 2 more weeks to my final exam and how I wish I had study week to just concentrate on studying. Yes, I love to complain. And I can almost imagine shaman telling me, ' think about the many others people who don''t even have to chance to study.' How I wish he can be right beside me to nag at me everyday to disallow the lazy bone to work within me.
I'm so tired of studying and working and chasing after the wind because I know at the end of the day it all meant nothing. chasing after the wind, how silly but yet it still have to be done.
I am whining because I have tons of work to do and I actually found myself doing nonsense and sleeping for the past few hours, sometimes I am amazed by how I can waste precious time away like that yet I yearn for it.
I, myself is such a contradiction.
Anyways, I know that I have been neglecting this space for a long while.
Other than working and studying, I did manage to have some colours added to my past weeks.
Swensense Ice cream buffet with shaman and his family was superb, I am amazed by us trying out all the 54 different flavour of ice-cream. I ate so much icecream that I am sure to find myself fasting from it for awhile.
Last saturday was a well spent day at barrage with the girls for coy outing.
After being away for awhile, I really appreciate the time that we spent together.
I was very encouraged by the girls when I saw that they had fun together and even more when God manage to hold the rain in barrage for us (: It was raining cats and dogs at every part of singapore that day, seriously.
Had an off day on Wednesday, and bum decided to bring me out for brunch (:
Headed down to wild honey for brunch, I was so excited because I have been wanting to go there ever since it opened. Although it was abit pricey but the food is GOOOD!
I will definitely be back there again someday, especially for their home-made ice tea.
I miss you bum, can't wait for your weekend live firing to be over....
How I wish the pace could be slower, slower for me to look at the world
enjoy it's colour and listen to the sound of nature. I need to take a breather.
I hope I don't grow to despise this lifestyle, how things are moving faster than I am,
how I am constantly catching up with everything else. I realise how my body has grown to become so lazy, constantly setting a lower standard for everything that I do.
Maybe it's time that I should put working at the childcare to an end. I want to make it good while it lasted and not working at a lower standard. 2 more weeks to my final exam and how I wish I had study week to just concentrate on studying. Yes, I love to complain. And I can almost imagine shaman telling me, ' think about the many others people who don''t even have to chance to study.' How I wish he can be right beside me to nag at me everyday to disallow the lazy bone to work within me.
I'm so tired of studying and working and chasing after the wind because I know at the end of the day it all meant nothing. chasing after the wind, how silly but yet it still have to be done.
I am whining because I have tons of work to do and I actually found myself doing nonsense and sleeping for the past few hours, sometimes I am amazed by how I can waste precious time away like that yet I yearn for it.
I, myself is such a contradiction.
Anyways, I know that I have been neglecting this space for a long while.
Other than working and studying, I did manage to have some colours added to my past weeks.
Swensense Ice cream buffet with shaman and his family was superb, I am amazed by us trying out all the 54 different flavour of ice-cream. I ate so much icecream that I am sure to find myself fasting from it for awhile.
Last saturday was a well spent day at barrage with the girls for coy outing.
After being away for awhile, I really appreciate the time that we spent together.
I was very encouraged by the girls when I saw that they had fun together and even more when God manage to hold the rain in barrage for us (: It was raining cats and dogs at every part of singapore that day, seriously.
Had an off day on Wednesday, and bum decided to bring me out for brunch (:
Headed down to wild honey for brunch, I was so excited because I have been wanting to go there ever since it opened. Although it was abit pricey but the food is GOOOD!
I will definitely be back there again someday, especially for their home-made ice tea.
I miss you bum, can't wait for your weekend live firing to be over.
Thursday, July 29, 2010 | Thursday, July 29, 2010
Thata two wise man.
Had my first surgery in my lifetime.
Wisdom tooth is such an annoying thing. Funny how everybody tries to hard to keep their tooth on their Gums but yet wisdom tooth are just meant to be taken off.
After suffering through days of agony of pain in my jaw and gums, I finally got it out.
I beg the dentist to give me General anesthetic but she refused. She gave me 4 local anesthetic instead. I hate needles into my gums.
to keep the long story short, I am grateful that we can use our medisave for the good $680 bucks surgery.
if not i'm so gonna just live on soya bean milk everyday.
My jaw is still a bit numb, and my cheek is swollen as if I hid a fish ball at the side. pharmacist said that there will be side effects of the medication on my taste buds and numbness on my lower lips and jaw but it will all be over in a week.
6 antibiotics and 4 painkillers/anti swell, Please heal soon.
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Wisdom tooth is such an annoying thing. Funny how everybody tries to hard to keep their tooth on their Gums but yet wisdom tooth are just meant to be taken off.
After suffering through days of agony of pain in my jaw and gums, I finally got it out.
I beg the dentist to give me General anesthetic but she refused. She gave me 4 local anesthetic instead. I hate needles into my gums.
to keep the long story short, I am grateful that we can use our medisave for the good $680 bucks surgery.
if not i'm so gonna just live on soya bean milk everyday.
My jaw is still a bit numb, and my cheek is swollen as if I hid a fish ball at the side. pharmacist said that there will be side effects of the medication on my taste buds and numbness on my lower lips and jaw but it will all be over in a week.
6 antibiotics and 4 painkillers/anti swell, Please heal soon.
Sunday, July 25, 2010 | Sunday, July 25, 2010
A partnership of companion
It is the 24th july for the third time together with bum.
We had brunch at rider's cafe. The previous time when I was there for dinner, I promise to go back again for their Berries pancake. Thinking back, I can actually still remember how fresh the cream was and how tangy the berries were.
my, oh my. I'm so glad we did.
Bum gave me a really beautiful hand-made card and a day of all paid shopping spree.
It was a day that the both of us has been looking forward to, especially that I needed a break from my exams.
It could have been better if we could have taken the balcony seat. Then it would be brunch and gazing at horses galloping. Atleast I manage to get a glimpse of this beautiful white horse and muscular brown one passing by us.
Bum said that he owes me a dinner date because we had to dine with his whole maternal side as mikall is back from the states from his studies. how silly because I really did not mind at all.
He was really sweet when he got disappointed that I didn't buy enough of stuff that I like. It wasn't the stuff that I chose that made my day but the thoughtfulness of him that made it really special.
It was a strong 3 years together through our own struggles and through our treasured moments. And for understanding my weakness and promising in helping me to stay close to God, why would I ask of any more of you bum.
We had brunch at rider's cafe. The previous time when I was there for dinner, I promise to go back again for their Berries pancake. Thinking back, I can actually still remember how fresh the cream was and how tangy the berries were.
my, oh my. I'm so glad we did.
Bum gave me a really beautiful hand-made card and a day of all paid shopping spree.
It was a day that the both of us has been looking forward to, especially that I needed a break from my exams.
It could have been better if we could have taken the balcony seat. Then it would be brunch and gazing at horses galloping. Atleast I manage to get a glimpse of this beautiful white horse and muscular brown one passing by us.
Bum said that he owes me a dinner date because we had to dine with his whole maternal side as mikall is back from the states from his studies. how silly because I really did not mind at all.
He was really sweet when he got disappointed that I didn't buy enough of stuff that I like. It wasn't the stuff that I chose that made my day but the thoughtfulness of him that made it really special.
It was a strong 3 years together through our own struggles and through our treasured moments. And for understanding my weakness and promising in helping me to stay close to God, why would I ask of any more of you bum.
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knowing you Jesus, Knowing you.
There is, no other king(:
You're my all, you're the best.
You're my God my righteousness,
And I thank you Lord.
| Sunday, July 25, 2010
(: end of mid term!
I am so glad that my mid term is over.
even though I only had two modules, I struggled my way through my mid term week.
studying till midnight and trying to cope with my work, it has been hell for me.
I dreaded everymorning for having to bring my sleepy head to work knowing that the short of staff in school and the noise level would probably drive me nuts.
well, now that it's over, I promise myself that I will pay more attention to my text and powerpoint slides while studying so that I won't have to rush through my econs again.
TGI-over.
I got an A for stats and a C for econs but well, atleast I pass my econs.
Now I know why I had never ever consider business or whatever related to it when I to choose my course for poly. I am better with numbers, not words and how I wish I was smarter the other way round. what can math and numbers do much in life. okay, whatever it is, my day became brighter after I was done with my econs test.
(:...
even though I only had two modules, I struggled my way through my mid term week.
studying till midnight and trying to cope with my work, it has been hell for me.
I dreaded everymorning for having to bring my sleepy head to work knowing that the short of staff in school and the noise level would probably drive me nuts.
well, now that it's over, I promise myself that I will pay more attention to my text and powerpoint slides while studying so that I won't have to rush through my econs again.
TGI-over.
I got an A for stats and a C for econs but well, atleast I pass my econs.
Now I know why I had never ever consider business or whatever related to it when I to choose my course for poly. I am better with numbers, not words and how I wish I was smarter the other way round. what can math and numbers do much in life. okay, whatever it is, my day became brighter after I was done with my econs test.
(:
Thursday, July 22, 2010 | Thursday, July 22, 2010
Midterm week ):
For starting too late, I'm gonna die. I'm just done with all my stats and now with my econs untouched. I need clever brain, considering that I only have 1full day left and 10chapters of econs. Oh my oh my. I hope Shannon comes soon cause I'm sitting in Starbucks for the past three hours alone and now my bladder is full.
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